Thanks, I have had trouble with NA since I started going there. God keeped me at a distance, people reached out to me, but I just couldn't help be think there was something wrong, I gradually leaned toward christianity as an answer, instead of NA. I see alot of hate, fighting, sadness in NA, and it got me thinking, if this program is supossed to do the things it says, then why are these people still acting like addicts? God is the answer, and I found him, I get upset when people from NA think I am nothing just because I don't believe what they do. Call it tough love, I call it ignorance, with intent to help others. How people think that telling someone off is going to bring me to an NA meeting I don know, because I would much rather go to a bible study than go to a meeting where everyone is so depressed. Know what I mean, I feel like god might be calling me, and opening thoughts in my mind, things I am think may not have anything to do with helping all NA members, but question pop into my mind, like you can't serve two masters. And it makes me think, if I think god is the only things that can save, why should I give my life over to this program of recovery?