This has by far been the strangest year for me when it comes to relationships. It started out with the first girl I ever felt more than friendship with. To tell the truth it was a new and exciting thing for me. I had no idea how complex and powerfull relationships could be. So that was my first real taste.
Anyway...that one ended kinda bad. But then I should have expected it. I mean I put God second in my life to the girl, and you know God wasn't having that! I didn't ever think it was possable for me to do that though. I never understood how couples could allow their mates to control their walks with God. I have seen my own mom not go to church because my dad didnt want to go. I never understood that.
But now I do. I learnt that when two people become so close...they become a part of each other. And when one part struggles in his/her walk with God the other one will as well. Because now you have BOTH people as ONE person. It doesnt make sence...unless you have been in that place I think. Because how could one person affect the other like that?! But it happens. It happens because of the bond.
It has shown me that it truely does take being strong for each other. A relationship based on God is going to HAVE to be one where God is spoken of often and each other helps to keep the other close to God. And as God has apointed the man as the head...he has an even greater responsibility to be strong in God.
Anyway, that I believe is the ONLY way a couple can have a relationship and be strong in God.
But that is just something I learned. Yet in this year it seems I have been tested GREATLY! I have been told several times by several women they wanted to consider being more than friends. Keep in mind now that I have NEVER been in a relationship until that first one of this year.
So here I stand now with so many people telling me they want more than friends and I don't know what to do! I am afraid to be in a relationship. Because I fear "What if I get into this with her and I miss the girl God REALLY wants for me?!"
I have already had to turn a few people down. I am finding it is so hard to do that though. Because to be honest my strongest desire is to have a family of my own. But I dont want that with "just anybody". I feel like I am being tested and tempted bad here. Last time I put God second...I have no desire to do that again! But I think....I know...who ever is lucky enough to be with me (not arrogant I just know I am worthy) is going to be someone that wants to talk about God with me and who will help me to better serve Him. So that when the time comes I can be strong enough to help her as well.
Just venting a little I guess. This relationship stuff is still new to me. LOL In fact before this year I never been told by someone that they wanted more than friends.
Anyway...that one ended kinda bad. But then I should have expected it. I mean I put God second in my life to the girl, and you know God wasn't having that! I didn't ever think it was possable for me to do that though. I never understood how couples could allow their mates to control their walks with God. I have seen my own mom not go to church because my dad didnt want to go. I never understood that.
But now I do. I learnt that when two people become so close...they become a part of each other. And when one part struggles in his/her walk with God the other one will as well. Because now you have BOTH people as ONE person. It doesnt make sence...unless you have been in that place I think. Because how could one person affect the other like that?! But it happens. It happens because of the bond.
It has shown me that it truely does take being strong for each other. A relationship based on God is going to HAVE to be one where God is spoken of often and each other helps to keep the other close to God. And as God has apointed the man as the head...he has an even greater responsibility to be strong in God.
Anyway, that I believe is the ONLY way a couple can have a relationship and be strong in God.
But that is just something I learned. Yet in this year it seems I have been tested GREATLY! I have been told several times by several women they wanted to consider being more than friends. Keep in mind now that I have NEVER been in a relationship until that first one of this year.
So here I stand now with so many people telling me they want more than friends and I don't know what to do! I am afraid to be in a relationship. Because I fear "What if I get into this with her and I miss the girl God REALLY wants for me?!"
I have already had to turn a few people down. I am finding it is so hard to do that though. Because to be honest my strongest desire is to have a family of my own. But I dont want that with "just anybody". I feel like I am being tested and tempted bad here. Last time I put God second...I have no desire to do that again! But I think....I know...who ever is lucky enough to be with me (not arrogant I just know I am worthy) is going to be someone that wants to talk about God with me and who will help me to better serve Him. So that when the time comes I can be strong enough to help her as well.
Just venting a little I guess. This relationship stuff is still new to me. LOL In fact before this year I never been told by someone that they wanted more than friends.
