My view of God has changed

[Olivet]

I dont see God as loving anymore. I see him as a stern, petty, favorite playing being.

I feel like my feelings dont matter to him. I feel whether Im respected or not doesnt matter. Im always pushing my feelings aside for everyone.
Being used as a doormat.

I vent to God but I get silence. Im struggling mentally, with kids.

God doesnt care.

I watched a video that triggered me. A woman with an abusive background who was promiscuous had out of wedlock kids. God blessed her in another country and revealed if she went back she would be with her family, sad, have nothing.

This is my life and not for lack of trying. I try and try and pray and pray but God isnt listening or cares or I truly rhink Im not his favorite so Im not important enough to bless or take care of.

I just feel like Im in the recesses of Gods mind. I dont think God cares about my life or progression. I just want to give up on him so bad bc he isnt helping.

 

[Unqualified]

Don’t be so quick to judge. We are all blessed in this country. Are your needs met? What can you do to change anything and God may bless you if you do. I have had a hard life. I made some right decisions along the way. Take one step at a time and try to change where you are in life, work up, build up, help yourself and God will help along the way.

 

[turkle]

I dont see God as loving anymore. I see him as a stern, petty, favorite playing being.

I feel like my feelings dont matter to him. I feel whether Im respected or not doesnt matter. Im always pushing my feelings aside for everyone.
Being used as a doormat.

I vent to God but I get silence. Im struggling mentally, with kids.

God doesnt care.

I watched a video that triggered me. A woman with an abusive background who was promiscuous had out of wedlock kids. God blessed her in another country and revealed if she went back she would be with her family, sad, have nothing.

This is my life and not for lack of trying. I try and try and pray and pray but God isnt listening or cares or I truly rhink Im not his favorite so Im not important enough to bless or take care of.

I just feel like Im in the recesses of Gods mind. I dont think God cares about my life or progression. I just want to give up on him so bad bc he isnt helping.

Your post reveals that you are deciding things about God according to your feelings. Emotion and truth are two different things. If you are ruled by emotion, then you will, as your post says, reject God.

God's truth is revealed to us in scripture. If you have decided that God doesn't care because you are having difficulty, then you are believing lies from the evil one. Following God, according to His Word, is a choice. Jesus was clear that we will have difficulties. You are no different, and God doesn't stop being who He is because you don't like it.

Change comes when we trust God with our troubles, as demonstrated over and over by David in the Psalms. David's life was in danger, but he trusted God, who saw him through. Your choice is to trust Him or not. If you do, He will teach you and grow you in your difficulties. If you don't, then you are on your own.

God's love is not measured by our comfort. It is measured by the fact that Jesus died for our sin and was raised from the dead. Whether you accept that or not is up to you. I recommend you choose wisely.

 

[Maria Billingsley]

I dont see God as loving anymore. I see him as a stern, petty, favorite playing being.

I feel like my feelings dont matter to him. I feel whether Im respected or not doesnt matter. Im always pushing my feelings aside for everyone.
Being used as a doormat.

I vent to God but I get silence. Im struggling mentally, with kids.

God doesnt care.

I watched a video that triggered me. A woman with an abusive background who was promiscuous had out of wedlock kids. God blessed her in another country and revealed if she went back she would be with her family, sad, have nothing.

This is my life and not for lack of trying. I try and try and pray and pray but God isnt listening or cares or I truly rhink Im not his favorite so Im not important enough to bless or take care of.

I just feel like Im in the recesses of Gods mind. I dont think God cares about my life or progression. I just want to give up on him so bad bc he isnt helping.

Welcome to CF. It is not easy to endure. Ask to recieve His Holy Spirit, if you are willing. Be blessed.

 

[1watchman]

Welcome to CF. It is not easy to endure. Ask to recieve His Holy Spirit, if you are willing. Be blessed.

What is needed is to RECEIVE the person of the Lord Jesus into our heart as Savior and 'best Friend' forever (noting John 3:16; John 14; John 17; etc. It is not about being religious or having a spirit, but having that relationship by prayer and devotion to the Savior daily (though He will come in the Spirit). We need to value the Son of God as the door to Heaven --would you say?

 

[Maria Billingsley]

What is needed is to RECEIVE the person of the Lord Jesus into our heart as Savior and 'best Friend' forever (noting John 3:16; John 14; John 17; etc. It is not about being religious or having a spirit, but having that relationship by prayer and devotion to the Savior daily (though He will come in the Spirit). We need to value the Son of God as the door to Heaven --would you say?

When we belive we are regenerated with His Holy Spirit. This is when He makes His Home in us. Blessings.
Jesus answered and said to him, “If anyone loves Me, he will keep My word; and My Father will love him, and We will come to him and make Our home with him.

 

[VeronicaVeronica]

Hello!

O.k., so I'm one of those ladies that likes to go to church-based Bible studies.

I have in the past, attended Bible studies that have been held outside of my particular Christian denomination, when I have been invited by friends.

The content of your post brings to my mind content from one such Bible study from the Roman Catholic based Walking With Purpose series by Lisa Brenninkmeyer. I recieved a bookmark as a gift with purchase of the study guide.

I hope it may help. Please believe the truths about our Savior.

 

[subtlecollision]

I'm so sorry you're going through a hard time. Maybe it's just the season you're going through and things will get better soon. Something good could be just around the corner. Could you find a Christian support group, Bible study, pastor, or mentor you could talk to? Having someone(s) like that to encourage you could really help get your view of God back to a right view.

 

[RileyG]

God is eternally faithful. Our feelings do not define reality.

 

[splish- splash]

Trust me, that is just satan's way of trying to vex you up.

Look at Mephibosheth at the King's palace, with a heart that was set on serving the King ( At your service he said ). & if the King offered him a seat & choice food at his table, it was not because he owed him that, but simply out of His kind heart.

There are times that God will give us and other times when it will never ever happen until we leave this earth, but never make the mistake of thinking that God does not love us because He does & is still a just & Sovereign God like that.

Each man is running his own race on this earth & God knows what is best for each & every one.

Romans 8:35-39

New International Version

35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:
“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” 37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.​