I was born in Northern Ireland in 1960 and I was brought up in a loving home with two sisters and one brother, my mum and dad are and always have been there for us all.
Well i am going to jump to when i reached the age of 16 because that is when things changed in our home. It was 19th October and my sister Reta and her boyfriend were going out that night and my mum and dad were up visiting a friend and my brother and younger sister and i were in the house. So my brother was in his bedroom and my sister was in bed and my sister cam back to change her trousers as the zip had broke and i went out side to speak to her boyfriend while she changed then she came out and of they went. About 30 mintues later Retas boyfriends sister came to the door with an other freind asking for mum and dad and told me that there had been a bad car accident and Reta was involved. i told them were they where and they went to see them but as the left my mum and dad passed them on the road and as they came in i stopped them and told them what had happened and they left.
About 30 minutes later they came home and dad was holding mum up and I knew right away that they were going to say Reta was dead. She had been killed our right in the accident. My heart broke, not more than an hour ago i spoke to her and laughed with her about her trousers and now she was gone. After the funeral and when we all got back to what we could call normality, mu mother cried every day and morned my sisters death she was hurting and none of us could do anything to help. this went on for months. Then one day my cousin came down he was a Christian and had be born again since the age of 9 years old he invited her to go and hear a pastor speak that night and she went. Pastor Willie Mullen was speaking and mum came home and seemed ok then within days we came home to find mum looking happier and she was at peace, at the dinner table she had told us that she fell to her knees that day and asked the Lord to come into her heart and that she was wonderfully saved and at peace. She said she was not angry with God for taking Reta but angry at herself for having to loss a daughter to find God.
She went to church and meetings and she was a happier person indeed and she was always calm and had poitive advice. Mum was back .
I started to work at a hospital with mentally handcap and life was good, we drank and smoked and partied what a life. Then one night at a party in the nurses home and the night went on and i got tired so i went to lie down in my friends room and there came a knock to the door and it was a young doc i had seen a few times and he asked if my room mate was in and he came into the room before i knew he was on me, he got up and tided himself and as he opened the door one of his mates came in, he left, his mate then forced himself on me he got up and left me i locked the door. and just lay there rocking'and crying. how did they get into the female nurses building there was always a secuity guard on. my mate ended up not coming in that night so i just lay there. I got up the next day to go to work and on the way to my ward i was in i say the two doctors and they walked past me and started to laught at me. I felt ill I wanted to go home but i had to do my shift. I never said anything to any one about it i just put it behind me. My room mate did not even know and i would not tell her.
Then one night my mate and I were working late and we had to catch the last bus we both were going home for the week end. The bus had gone so saying there was two of us we hitched a lift and the man stopped for us so we both jumped into the back. my stop was 5 miles before my mates and she knew she would be safer in the back of the car.
I had about a mile to walk before i got home i was used to it had been doing it for years now. about a quarter of a mile from home this car pulled up behind me and it was the man who had gave us a lift from work. He said that my mate told him i had a mile to walk and he wanted to make sure i was ok. I though how lovely he said come on i will take you on home i said no thanks it was only a little way he said come on so i thought yea why not. He reached my house and i said you can let me of her and he said can i trun down there and i said yea so he drove down to turn and as he reversed her locked the doors and grabbed me and forced my seat back and he raped me. I was still with shock not again not again please. He got up and opened the door and i got out and walked up to the house it was about 5 minuts but it seamed like hours. I walked in and mum was watching tv i looked at her and i could not tell her i was afraid I should not have got into the car it was my fault. I went in and washed my self and went to bed. i had to be strong my younger sister was in the same room.
The next day i told my mate what had happen and about the two docs as well and told her i was leaving that job. I did.
I turned 18 and i was out with my mates and i met an old boyfriend and we started to see each other he was in the army and it was just meant to be. We got engaged and on september 8 1979 we got married. we had a great marrage and had three children one girl and two boys. through the marrige unknown to me he had be cheating on me but i evenually found out and he stopped. Now when my middle child was born i gave my life to the Lord and it was tought because my husband had no time for church or anyone to do with it. So life was tuff with him , about 1 year had pasted and i started to go me out and i drifted away from God and lift went back to the way it was. 10 and a half years into our marriage he met someone else and i left him.
I took my kids and moved out got a rented house and set up home there with them. the day before our wedding aniversary he left Northern Ireland to come to england and way time past and i met my second husband wow... lets cut it short we married in 1995 and he physically and mentally abused me. It was shortly after this i was diagnised with Fibromyalgia. It was a very stressful and hurtful life.
then on the 27 th feburary 1998 he came in from work and gave me a tape he said that a christian man had started working in the storeroom and my husband and him had been speaking for days and he sent this tape home for us to listen to . I had said to him once about being a back slidder so this is what kicked it of when he asked what a back slidder was.
Anyway we listened to the tapes when the kids were in bed and the last words on them tapes chewed at me all night, STOP COMING AND COME.
The next moring early i went into the bathroom and i feef to my knees and asked the Lord to forgive me of my sin and to allow me to return to the fold. I was gloriously forgiven, i cried and i went and woke by hubby up and told him he said how nice.
for weeks he kept going out and then on 16th april he went out but he came back about an hour later with a migraine and he went and lay down and got up and about 11 pm and said to me I know i should not be doing this but i am anyway and of he went again. He had never said anything like that before. He came home again at 11. 30 pm with an other headache and i was in bed so he came up and got into bed and feel asleep for about 10 minutes he woke up and turned round and with tears in him eyes he said i want what you have i want the Lord and I had the great privelege of leading my husband to the Lord for Salvation. it was just after midnight and it was 17 april now it was my birthday. God gave me a gift that no one else could have.
My husband is a changed man today thanks to God he asks me one day why did you not go, i said i knew there was a nice person in you trying to get out and i wanted him. God gave me him.
I meant to say 7 years after my mum got saved my dad gave his life to God as well.
We are all praying now for the rest of our family, we have been taken together through stepping stones on our Christian walk since then and i know that we will have a few more before we go to glory.
God never left me for when i look back i can see how he healed me and lifted me even though i did not know it at the time.
Never think that God will not forgive you all how have a testimony are the witness to the forgiving power of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Praise the Lord for what he done for me my husband and my family.
Well i am going to jump to when i reached the age of 16 because that is when things changed in our home. It was 19th October and my sister Reta and her boyfriend were going out that night and my mum and dad were up visiting a friend and my brother and younger sister and i were in the house. So my brother was in his bedroom and my sister was in bed and my sister cam back to change her trousers as the zip had broke and i went out side to speak to her boyfriend while she changed then she came out and of they went. About 30 mintues later Retas boyfriends sister came to the door with an other freind asking for mum and dad and told me that there had been a bad car accident and Reta was involved. i told them were they where and they went to see them but as the left my mum and dad passed them on the road and as they came in i stopped them and told them what had happened and they left.
About 30 minutes later they came home and dad was holding mum up and I knew right away that they were going to say Reta was dead. She had been killed our right in the accident. My heart broke, not more than an hour ago i spoke to her and laughed with her about her trousers and now she was gone. After the funeral and when we all got back to what we could call normality, mu mother cried every day and morned my sisters death she was hurting and none of us could do anything to help. this went on for months. Then one day my cousin came down he was a Christian and had be born again since the age of 9 years old he invited her to go and hear a pastor speak that night and she went. Pastor Willie Mullen was speaking and mum came home and seemed ok then within days we came home to find mum looking happier and she was at peace, at the dinner table she had told us that she fell to her knees that day and asked the Lord to come into her heart and that she was wonderfully saved and at peace. She said she was not angry with God for taking Reta but angry at herself for having to loss a daughter to find God.
She went to church and meetings and she was a happier person indeed and she was always calm and had poitive advice. Mum was back .
I started to work at a hospital with mentally handcap and life was good, we drank and smoked and partied what a life. Then one night at a party in the nurses home and the night went on and i got tired so i went to lie down in my friends room and there came a knock to the door and it was a young doc i had seen a few times and he asked if my room mate was in and he came into the room before i knew he was on me, he got up and tided himself and as he opened the door one of his mates came in, he left, his mate then forced himself on me he got up and left me i locked the door. and just lay there rocking'and crying. how did they get into the female nurses building there was always a secuity guard on. my mate ended up not coming in that night so i just lay there. I got up the next day to go to work and on the way to my ward i was in i say the two doctors and they walked past me and started to laught at me. I felt ill I wanted to go home but i had to do my shift. I never said anything to any one about it i just put it behind me. My room mate did not even know and i would not tell her.
Then one night my mate and I were working late and we had to catch the last bus we both were going home for the week end. The bus had gone so saying there was two of us we hitched a lift and the man stopped for us so we both jumped into the back. my stop was 5 miles before my mates and she knew she would be safer in the back of the car.
I had about a mile to walk before i got home i was used to it had been doing it for years now. about a quarter of a mile from home this car pulled up behind me and it was the man who had gave us a lift from work. He said that my mate told him i had a mile to walk and he wanted to make sure i was ok. I though how lovely he said come on i will take you on home i said no thanks it was only a little way he said come on so i thought yea why not. He reached my house and i said you can let me of her and he said can i trun down there and i said yea so he drove down to turn and as he reversed her locked the doors and grabbed me and forced my seat back and he raped me. I was still with shock not again not again please. He got up and opened the door and i got out and walked up to the house it was about 5 minuts but it seamed like hours. I walked in and mum was watching tv i looked at her and i could not tell her i was afraid I should not have got into the car it was my fault. I went in and washed my self and went to bed. i had to be strong my younger sister was in the same room.
The next day i told my mate what had happen and about the two docs as well and told her i was leaving that job. I did.
I turned 18 and i was out with my mates and i met an old boyfriend and we started to see each other he was in the army and it was just meant to be. We got engaged and on september 8 1979 we got married. we had a great marrage and had three children one girl and two boys. through the marrige unknown to me he had be cheating on me but i evenually found out and he stopped. Now when my middle child was born i gave my life to the Lord and it was tought because my husband had no time for church or anyone to do with it. So life was tuff with him , about 1 year had pasted and i started to go me out and i drifted away from God and lift went back to the way it was. 10 and a half years into our marriage he met someone else and i left him.
I took my kids and moved out got a rented house and set up home there with them. the day before our wedding aniversary he left Northern Ireland to come to england and way time past and i met my second husband wow... lets cut it short we married in 1995 and he physically and mentally abused me. It was shortly after this i was diagnised with Fibromyalgia. It was a very stressful and hurtful life.
then on the 27 th feburary 1998 he came in from work and gave me a tape he said that a christian man had started working in the storeroom and my husband and him had been speaking for days and he sent this tape home for us to listen to . I had said to him once about being a back slidder so this is what kicked it of when he asked what a back slidder was.
Anyway we listened to the tapes when the kids were in bed and the last words on them tapes chewed at me all night, STOP COMING AND COME.
The next moring early i went into the bathroom and i feef to my knees and asked the Lord to forgive me of my sin and to allow me to return to the fold. I was gloriously forgiven, i cried and i went and woke by hubby up and told him he said how nice.
for weeks he kept going out and then on 16th april he went out but he came back about an hour later with a migraine and he went and lay down and got up and about 11 pm and said to me I know i should not be doing this but i am anyway and of he went again. He had never said anything like that before. He came home again at 11. 30 pm with an other headache and i was in bed so he came up and got into bed and feel asleep for about 10 minutes he woke up and turned round and with tears in him eyes he said i want what you have i want the Lord and I had the great privelege of leading my husband to the Lord for Salvation. it was just after midnight and it was 17 april now it was my birthday. God gave me a gift that no one else could have.
My husband is a changed man today thanks to God he asks me one day why did you not go, i said i knew there was a nice person in you trying to get out and i wanted him. God gave me him.
I meant to say 7 years after my mum got saved my dad gave his life to God as well.
We are all praying now for the rest of our family, we have been taken together through stepping stones on our Christian walk since then and i know that we will have a few more before we go to glory.
God never left me for when i look back i can see how he healed me and lifted me even though i did not know it at the time.
Never think that God will not forgive you all how have a testimony are the witness to the forgiving power of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Praise the Lord for what he done for me my husband and my family.
