my story

[roxyjlee]

hi my name is Jess im new here so i thought i might share my story with you.

from the age of 3 to 18 i was sexually assaulted by my dad i could not tell any one to eaily last year telling someone what was happening to me was one of the hardest thing i have done. i told my friend and moved out of home that day. that was not the hardest thing i have done eaily this year i pressed 9 charges on my dad and all that is still in the process of going to court. i still struggle alot with been hurt by my dad i feel yuck inside cos of what he did to me. i fear every night that he will come and find me and assult me again. i have blacked out most or my life but have clear pictures of what my dad did to me so that makes it hard alot of the time cos i cant remember good things about my childhood only bad. i am slowly over coming my fears and slowly been able to talk about it with people. through all of this though i have been able to get my life back on track i am living in a house with girls atm and no that i have people who are there for me and will help me if i need help. i still strugle with the pain my dad put me through every day but hopfully one day i wont stuggle with that pain at all. Through all of this i have became a stonger person and been able to deal with things and not just bottle them up inside any more. i praise god for every moment i am living here

 

[myanchor]

Alright youngun! You are doing well. How is your relationship with your mother and siblings? Extended family? Are they supporting you? You may well have prevented others from being his victims too. Good on you!

Will pray for you.

And welcome.

 

[roxyjlee]

i still talk to mum we get along somtimes she dont really believe me so its really hard. my brother i talk to his 15 atm so he is a pain lol. dont talk to any other family about from my grandparents on mums side. i dont think i have really stoppped him from doing it to others i have heard that he has done it to some other people and it hurts me so so bad just wish there could be somthig to get him to stop right now but theirs not

 

[Johnnz]

You did well to report him. But it's painful having to do that to your dad!

Abuse can destroy a person's life. Wonderfully, we can walk with Jesus back through those awful times and experience a real healing. I hope you have someone who you can do that with.

Bless you
John
NZ

 

[walking-in-love]

Jess Your story could be mind I was 3 years old and the abuse went on for years.....But it wasn't my Dad but my grandfather ....Thank you for being that brave person and talking about your story I know that healing is a slow hard process... but we can be free and even have times when we don't think about it at all..... Put your truth in God and believe that there is nothing that he can't fix.....May His protection surround you with his perfect love, peace and joy ....love Jane