I just needed a place to ramble a bit. This is really a widow issue but I don't feel as comfortable in that forum so since it is also a "single's" issue in a way, you get my vent.
My eldest turned 16 today. He was 12 when his daddy died. I don't know why he has had to go through his teen years without his dad. We had a good day...but it isn't anything like if his dad were here. He would have been so excited and proud of him. I can't even afford to let him get his driver's license quite yet (hopefully, in a month though). Luckily, he said he didn't care because he still prefers to have me in the car with him.
The day should have been good but it feels so empty. Sometimes doing this alone is so hard.
My eldest turned 16 today. He was 12 when his daddy died. I don't know why he has had to go through his teen years without his dad. We had a good day...but it isn't anything like if his dad were here. He would have been so excited and proud of him. I can't even afford to let him get his driver's license quite yet (hopefully, in a month though). Luckily, he said he didn't care because he still prefers to have me in the car with him.
The day should have been good but it feels so empty. Sometimes doing this alone is so hard.
. My oldest son was almost 11 when his dad died. Critical time. My youngest is now 14 (oldest is 18) and he said when his uncle comes to visit he wanted to talk to him about what he should be when he grows up. He doesn't want my opinion, but I understand. He needs a man's opinion. My BIL isn't around often and even when he lived in the same state, he wasn't there for his own kids for a time. He is getting better because he is closer with the Lord now so the timing is better for my younger son. It is especially hard when you want them to do something (like go to college for free because they got a scholarship) and there is no one there to back you up or "make" them do it. God has a plan, that's all I know. WHAT the plan is? IDK that! 
