my self confidence is damaged

[beloved001]

I know it is not my fault of the rape and other past abuse, but i m trying so hard to push me to normal life , but i still hard to eat proper, wash face etc, wash clothes etc, why so?

and i feel there is a strong ugly slave spirit inside me, I pray Jesus to help remove this slave thing in Jesus name, amen

 

[BelindaP]

What you are feeling are the scars upon your soul. When sex is consensual, there is a uniting of two souls, which is how God designed it. However, when it is not, the victim's soul gets injured, just as the physical body is injured.

Unfortunately, injuries to the soul can take a long time to heal. They can also be debilitating in the short term.

Try to be patient with yourself. If you had taken a fall off a 20-foot building, it would be very understandable if it took you months to be able to walk, and possibly years before nobody could tell how severely injured you were. Being raped hurts you just as bad, just not in a visible way.

For the time being just focus on the simple things like eating and caring for yourself. Don't feel bad if that's all you can do right now. Do you have a support group or a therapist to talk to? They can help you, too, and you will feel less alone.

I pray that God will hold you in his arms and help you to fly again when it is time.

 

[FallingWaters]

I know it is not my fault of the rape and other past abuse, but i m trying so hard to push me to normal life , but i still hard to eat proper, wash face etc, wash clothes etc, why so?

and i feel there is a strong ugly slave spirit inside me, I pray Jesus to help remove this slave thing in Jesus name, amen

It sounds to me like you might be depressed and are still grieving the loss and pain you suffered of what happened to you.

It is normal to feel that way. If you spoke to other women who have been through it, you might feel better, more normal.

I pray that you would be able to forgive the person who attacked you. Meditate on Matthew 18:23-35 for help doing that. Forgiveness sets you free from the bondage of anger, bitterness, resentment, hurt, fear, etc.

I am so very sorry about what happened to you. I suffered the effects of all kinds of abuse in my life for a very long time because I had no one to help me. I hope and pray that God would send help into your life, that you could grieve and heal.

 

[UnitynLove]

Have you seen a counselor?