my problem is my boyfriend's

[christian cutie danni]

I know this title may be confusing... And I'm sorry....

I just need to vent right now... It's been at least four months since I have SI myself, and I'm really doing good for the most part... But I'm really struggling with not picking up a razor right now after what's going on with my boyfriend...

There are things going at school between my boyfriend, and one of his friend's girlfriend. Supposedly. And I don't really know what to do... Plus his mom left him when he was way little, and lately he's been feeling the impact of not having her around, and blaming himself and lots of other things.

Now he's carving my name into his arm, and him doing this makes me stressed out already but even worse, it makes me want to cut. Plus when I was cutting he told me I had to stop... ANd now I'm just a big mess because I'm wanting to pick up on old habits that I quit when I gave my life to God. Like drinking and doing drugs. I just don't know what to do right now, and I can't help but cry, something I never do...

I want to stay by him, and I'll never leave him, but I don't know what to do anymore! I've always known what to do, but now is my time to just let God handle it, which I know he's testing me, because I was never very good at that... So I don't know... I just hate seeing my problems become some one else's besides God's....

 

[goldenviolet]

danni sweetie, , these are lots of complicated issues. staying his girlfriend is good for you? just think about it all. are we suppose to be with people that bring out the worst in us, or cause us to stumble? how about dating? you just pray and ask God to help you do whatever it is that is best. a big Warmfuzzy from me! relationships are big on our hearts. and take time to sort out sometimes.

 

[luv4godremains]

hey danni, remember you can pm me anytime you need to chat to someone. and, I think you're doing relaly well to stay strong for as long as you have and through everythnig you've been through. God was with you that whole time, and he is gonna stay with you too!
Pray for your boyfriend, get him to talk to you about what is going on, and maybe if you can't handle it, then get him to go see a school councellor or someone? I know it won't end the problems, but it will certainly take a laod off of you, you don't have to carry all fo his problems as well as your own, and he would have someone who is more used to this kind of thing to talk to as well.
hang in there angel, stay strong, keep praying and know that God is gonna stay with you and be right by your side!
God bless hun

 

[christian cutie danni]

Hey... long time no see... Thanks GV, thank you LGR... I appreciate it.. I talked to him yesterday... but things are kinda sucky right now, so hopefully i can get it all sorted out... And LGR, I will PM U one of these days instead of the other way around... lol...