my ocd

[RiderJman]

Hi everyone

this is my first post on these forums and i guess i would write abt the thing that has been bothering me for a long time

I have ocd, my ocd is that whenever i think read see touch feel of hear pretty become expose to something in any way i believe that somehow through some magicla menas it will contaminate and change me somehow. for e.g. if i see a persons name i become obsessed that i might become that person even writing this now is causing me to ocd

its been happening on and off since 2008 and now seems to be stronger and stronger and keeps snowballing into smaller and more mediocre things, at first it was when i read soemthing but now it has nearly become doing any action

im trying to beat it through the exposure method but its kinda hard, guess i just felt like i need to tell someone abt it,

thx for reading

 

[zingiber]

I had OCD when at school that I and someone else would magically swap bodies during the night if I looked at them/thought about/sat next to them. Sounds similar to your problem, except yours sounds far more widespread (not just about people!).

Remeber that it is OCD - it is not real. Remember that you do not truly believe the thoughts; remember this in spite of your fear, which would convince you otherwise. It is good to hear that you are fighting the thoughts already, using ERP. How are you doing it? Exposing yourself to things that you fear will change you for the worse? Perhaps you could also give yourself a break by exposing yourself to things which you would like to change you for the better. I doubt your brain lets things work that way (if it was my OCD it wouldn't!), but hopefully you will see the inconsistency of the obsessions!

Keep up the good work!

 

[RiderJman]

thanks for the reply, i know that its not real but its hard to convince myself when the fear seep in, and whats worse is that sometimes i think my ocd will affect other people like my friends adn well i feel guiltly when i ocd and its my friends adn i go "oh well this is not real"... even though it isnt real >.<

 

[zingiber]

Oh dear. It is like OCD, finding that it can't quite beat you, takes hostages of your friends!

 

[shelovesChrist]

@ Rj -- hey , i completley understand what you mean when you say every little thing . sometimes its frustrating because simple things in life become a big deal but my faith is not in me but in the Lord to help keep me , because thats truly whose been keeping us . and i have intrusive thoughts about my friends and fam , and i can distinguish them from mine because i know me and who i want to be and the thoughts are harsh and evil , not of the Spirit of God who abides in me . but its hard but at the end of the day God knows our hearts . stay encouraged , praying for you

 

[kaykay9.0]

If you aren't or haven't, I would suggest trying to see a counselor and/or phyician about your OCD. Sounds like you are spiking pretty badly right now with it.