My mind is tricking me

[vorbis5]

Hello everyone. I'm 16, a sophomore, and a Christian since 5th grade. So, this might be hard to explain but here it is.

I have been completely straight all of my life and have found many girls attractive. I have also sadly lusted over the internet countless times. Well twice a year my cousins (three cool guys my age) come up from California and we joke around by making gay jokes sometimes. This has been going on since 7th grade for me and now its starting to backfire.

In February I started to worry if I was actually gay, which I knew I wasn't, but the thought of "what if I was a homosexual" won't escape my mind. I have absolutely no attraction to men but everytime I look at a guy my mind tells me "hes hot". It's starting to destroy my life and I have been praying about it a ton, but the stupid irrational thoughts wont go away.

I just want my life to be normal again and I'm kinda scared. I am not in denile and I know I have, do, and will always like girls and the thought of liking a man disgusts me. I just want my mind to stop playing annoying tricks on me. Maybe this is more of a prayer request so please, keep me in your prayers.

 

[Divinah]

Hi. I think it must be impossible for a young person these days. Sex in the media bombards us all with EVERYTHING imaginable and permits ANYTHING.

Resist the devil...and he WILL FLEE...this is a promise from God and it works.

Take captive your thoughts and bring them into obedience in Christ.

The more you allow yourself to be subjected to such things...straight or otherwise...the more compromised in your faith you'll be.

 

[Snipergosh1]

Dude

 

[Snipergosh1]

Oops. Posted that before finishing. Dude, you really dont need to worry. See when I was young I had the same problem. As long as I had the fear, the good looking men I saw looked attractive. Not necessarily very attractive but I would fear that I'm gay or something. Plus I was often told that I looked like a girl up until I was 14.

Now I'm out of teens and totally straight. It all changed when I focused more on my masculinity. Also people stopped telling me I looked like a girl once I had reached puberty. Now I have a girlfriend and have had a few other girls proposing to me. Now it seems so funny to think I had the fear in the past.

So my advice. Chill out. You're not gay. Focus on your masculinity. Stop those silly gay jokes. Pray. You're not going to 'go gay' all of sudden. It doesn't happen unless you actively pursue that path. And if a guy is handsome, he will look handsome. Nothing wrong in that. It's a problem only when a guy seems sexy or hot. You'll be alright man

 

[vorbis5]

OK... Wow, well this sucks. Where is God? My HOCD left me for a day or two then the intrusive thoughts and fears came back. Is God capable of curring this HOCD and worries from me? I'm confused and I hate myself right now. Help

[EDIT] :\ Err. The HOCD is going away a little but the now the problem is that... My sex drive is gone. You guys would understand that I don't want to sin and lust, but I want to have a libido. I'm now caught between a rock and a hard place. I can't get an erection and quite frankly im scared. Does God really want this for me??? I really want my old life back where I had a sex drive and things were normal!

 

[Johnnz]

It' snot uncommon for guys to talk about sex and sexuality as part of their development. Sex is an interesting topic for many (most?) teenagers. However, a young guy wouldn't feel comfortable talking about sex with a young female, and vice versa. so same sex sex talk takes place.

Stop worrying. You are coming on line sexually and will settle down into values and attitudes that will become more mature as you continue living.

John
NZ

 

[Divinah]

WHaaaaa?

Really?

 

[Episaw]

There is a scripture that says "As a man thinks so is he." I would like to add to that "there is more to life than sex". I do not understand why you are worried about your sexual prowess or lack of it. You are not married so what is the problem? You don't need sexual prowess until then.

If all you do is think about how you perform sexually, "as a man thinks, so is he."

If you think about God has a plan for your life which includes all things sexual, "as a man thinks, so is he."

Our brain determines what we think about, so the scripture talks about renewing the mnd that we may be able to prove what the will of God is for us.

So the simple answer is, renew your mind, get into the Word of God and let God do the worrying. After all he did say to cast all your cares on him.

 

[doctorwho29]

You're not the only one with such problems and the Lord has been slowly but surely helping me. Don't lose hope and feel free to PM me if you want to really talk about this with someone.

 

[doctorwho29]

You are not the only one with such struggles. The Lord has been slowly but surely leading me away from such thoughts and I know He can do it for you as well. Don't lose hope and PM me if you want to talk to someone about this. I'm willing to listen to you and offer advise.