My heart is like a stone

[TenthAveN]

Why, when I think about following Jesus, do I get this churning feeling in my chest that feels like my very heart is saying no? I hate it, and it scares me. I don’t want to be opposed to Jesus, and yet it feels like I don’t even care. I’ve asked God to help me to want to follow Jesus, and to want to do good instead of evil. I feel so evil inside.

 

[OldWiseGuy]

Why, when I think about following Jesus, do I get this churning feeling in my chest that feels like my very heart is saying no? I hate it, and it scares me. I don’t want to be opposed to Jesus, and yet it feels like I don’t even care. I’ve asked God to help me to want to follow Jesus, and to want to do good instead of evil. I feel so evil inside.

"The love of many will wax cold" in the end time. I feel that way sometimes too. It's the age we live in, but it doesn't have to destroy your faith.

 

[Carl Emerson]

Why, when I think about following Jesus, do I get this churning feeling in my chest that feels like my very heart is saying no? I hate it, and it scares me. I don’t want to be opposed to Jesus, and yet it feels like I don’t even care. I’ve asked God to help me to want to follow Jesus, and to want to do good instead of evil. I feel so evil inside.

Your body, mind and spirit is your own.

Would you tolerate an intruder in your house ??

The early believers renounced secret and shameful ways. (2 Cor 4:2)

Renounce means to "Speak against" in the Greek text.

Refuse it in Jesus name - tell it to get out and stay out.

You don't have to tolerate that stuff.

If you have any doubts about doing this then find a Church leader who will stand with you in this matter.

 

[TenthAveN]

Your body, mind and spirit is your own.

Would you tolerate an intruder in your house ??

The early believers renounced secret and shameful ways. (2 Cor 4:2)

Renounce means to "Speak against" in the Greek text.

Refuse it in Jesus name - tell it to get out and stay out.

You don't have to tolerate that stuff.

If you have any doubts about doing this then find a Church leader who will stand with you in this matter.

Carl, you’ve always been quick to give me advice (even though it seems like it falls on deaf ears), and I appreciate that. It’s just been difficult because I still only sorrow for my sins because they condemn me, not because they are an offense against God. I want to see all of God’s laws as good, and obey them out of gratitude and because they are good. I’m tired of just wanting to be spared eternal damnation, and having that be my motivation.

 

[OldWiseGuy]

Carl, you’ve always been quick to give me advice (even though it seems like it falls on deaf ears), and I appreciate that. It’s just been difficult because I still only sorrow for my sins because they condemn me, not because they are an offense against God. I want to see all of God’s laws as good, and obey them out of gratitude and because they are good. I’m tired of just wanting to be spared eternal damnation, and having that be my motivation.

Sounds like you're trying to save yourself. God will save you through the sacrifice of Jesus.

 

[Carl Emerson]

Carl, you’ve always been quick to give me advice (even though it seems like it falls on deaf ears), and I appreciate that. It’s just been difficult because I still only sorrow for my sins because they condemn me, not because they are an offense against God. I want to see all of God’s laws as good, and obey them out of gratitude and because they are good. I’m tired of just wanting to be spared eternal damnation, and having that be my motivation.

It sounds like you are labouring under illegal condemnation.

Is it possible for you to go on a retreat some where for the sole purpose of being prostrate before God for a time. It sounds like you would benefit from fasting and waiting.

The hope would be that you would gain some revelation concerning who He is that will adjust your inner desires and motivations.

If you did this, folks on CF could pray for you to have a meaningful encounter with Him.

 

[TenthAveN]

It sounds like you are labouring under illegal condemnation.

Is it possible for you to go on a retreat some where for the sole purpose of being prostrate before God for a time. It sounds like you would benefit from fasting and waiting.

The hope would be that you would gain some revelation concerning who He is that will adjust your inner desires and motivations.

If you did this, folks on CF could pray for you to have a meaningful encounter with Him.

I’m not entirely certain where I would go. I’m not sure if these feelings I have are real or just mental illness. I’ve just always had trouble wrapping my head around how feelings aren’t always true, because it seems like many that decided to follow Jesus had an emotional experience, like a literal pulling. I remember having that feeling when I rededicated my life to Christ 2 years ago before I was stricken with mental illness.

 

[TenthAveN]

Sounds like you're trying to save yourself. God will save you through the sacrifice of Jesus.

I remember Paul saying that worldly sorrow leads to death. I’ve asked time and time again for true sorrow, but it’s seems as though it’s always been worldly.

 

[Mayflower1]

We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ,
2 Corinthians 10:5 NASB

 

[Mayflower1]

I have learned to not follow my feelings. Take your thoughts csptive and develop good habits in staying in God's Word and following Him...your feelings will eventually line up.

-And He said to him, “ ‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart , and with all your soul , and with all your mind .’
Matthew 22:37 NASB1995

Heart= feelings

The heart can be deceitful and we have to guide it with right thinking. You sound like you know the Truth and encourage you to pursue that.

 

[Carl Emerson]

I’m not entirely certain where I would go. I’m not sure if these feelings I have are real or just mental illness. I’ve just always had trouble wrapping my head around how feelings aren’t always true, because it seems like many that decided to follow Jesus had an emotional experience, like a literal pulling. I remember having that feeling when I rededicated my life to Christ 2 years ago before I was stricken with mental illness.

I have been there.

Never forget that Jesus authority is supreme in all realms. Spiritual, emotional, mental, physical. Wrong thoughts and feelings can be planted like weeds in a garden. You are the gate keeper.

Check out where the retreats are in your area.

Find strong christian leadership to partner with on your journey out and chase as much prayer as possible - this will accelerate your release.

 

[disciple Clint]

Why, when I think about following Jesus, do I get this churning feeling in my chest that feels like my very heart is saying no? I hate it, and it scares me. I don’t want to be opposed to Jesus, and yet it feels like I don’t even care. I’ve asked God to help me to want to follow Jesus, and to want to do good instead of evil. I feel so evil inside.

These are difficult times and we are all suffering from some form of depression. There are many encouraging words in the Bible. Encouraging Bible Verses

 

[returntosender]

Why, when I think about following Jesus, do I get this churning feeling in my chest that feels like my very heart is saying no? I hate it, and it scares me. I don’t want to be opposed to Jesus, and yet it feels like I don’t even care. I’ve asked God to help me to want to follow Jesus, and to want to do good instead of evil. I feel so evil inside.

Take heart! Its obvious of your love. I to experience that sometimes. Stay with God and you will be renewed.
Always remember Gods love for you.
God bless and guide you in your walk.

 

[AK1982]

I do experience bitterness in soul and mind at-times, the frequency of re-occurrence has increased after a certain trial of my life that didn’t end the way that was pleasing to me. I don’t really care if this bitterness is emotional, physical or mental illness or something. I just know it’s strong, sometimes stronger than me.

Many times it defeated me and I end up, for no apparent reason, without prayer and without reading His word for quite a number of days..

But, I know I cannot stay there. So, I take back the control by fasting and praying and consciously surrendering myself to His wills and waiting patiently upon Him until all that He intended for me comes to pass. Trusting the fact that His plans for me are far more superior than mine.

God has never failed to renew my mind and spirit every time I sought him with all my heart. Quite a painful fluctuating journey but, HIS grace has been sufficient so far!!

 

[Petros2015]

"my heart is like a stone"

Maybe there's something you should ask for...

Matthew 7:7-9

7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
9 “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake?

Luke 11:9-13

9 “So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
11 “Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? 12 Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? 13 If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”

 

[Goodhuman]

It is normal, your inside must be resurrected, so you become good.

 

[OldWiseGuy]

I remember Paul saying that worldly sorrow leads to death. I’ve asked time and time again for true sorrow, but it’s seems as though it’s always been worldly.

True sorrow doesn't always manifest outwardly. We also live in a very cynical age.

 

[paul1149]

I’ve just always had trouble wrapping my head around how feelings aren’t always true, because it seems like many that decided to follow Jesus had an emotional experience, like a literal pulling. I remember having that feeling when I rededicated my life to Christ 2 years ago before I was stricken with mental illness.

Pursuing feelings is a losing game, like a dog chasing its tail. Take your stand on the Word, which says that all who call upon the name of the Lord will be saved. Sometimes the goosebumps do attend salvation, and that's a beautiful thing. But then sometimes a plant that starts out well withers in the heat.

God knows what He's doing. Salvation is His idea, on His terms, and He will be faithful.

What is needed is to reconsecrate yourself to the Lord no matter what you may see or feel, and then to persist in it. Each battle the Israelites fought required a different strategy, and some obstacles must be marinated in grace over time, like the walls of Jericho. Your posts here could easily be turned God-ward as prayers, and they would be very efficacious. Read the parable at Lk 18.1-ff, of the persistent widow. God will grant your request. He wants to. Believe and receive, even if it proves to be an extended process. God is faithful and is greater than your challenges. Encourage your heart in Him.

 

[Maria Billingsley]

Why, when I think about following Jesus, do I get this churning feeling in my chest that feels like my very heart is saying no? I hate it, and it scares me. I don’t want to be opposed to Jesus, and yet it feels like I don’t even care. I’ve asked God to help me to want to follow Jesus, and to want to do good instead of evil. I feel so evil inside.

Have you recieved His Holy Spirit? Sin is the ultimate separator. Do you know that Jesus Christ of Nazareth is God? You can not go to the Father unless you go through Him, Jesus Christ of Nazareth. When you are ready to Love The Lord, He will empower you with His Spirit who will lead you into all truth. He will not abandon you. Be blessed.

 

[TenthAveN]

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Have you recieved His Holy Spirit? Sin is the ultimate separator. Do you know that Jesus Christ of Nazareth is God? You can not go to the Father unless you go through Him, Jesus Christ of Nazareth. When you are ready to Love The Lord, He will empower you with His Spirit who will lead you into all truth. He will not abandon you. Be blessed.

Ive asked God to send the Holy Spirit to dwell in my heart. I can’t change myself, and yet I still try in vain.