My Fears

[midair7231]

Hi everyone. I feel like im going downhill again. If anyone does not know I have been struggling with ROCD lately. I was doing well for a couple of weeks, but now I feel like it wasn’t real. I would appreciate everyone’s prayers for the coming week. I am getting married in a week and I am having fears creep up on me. My fears are:

1) While my fiancé is gone for the week, my mood will improve while she is gone and therefore my ocd will use that against me Ex. “Look how happy you are when she is gone”

2) I fear that I will feel horrible my wedding and ruin everything.

3) My greatest fear would be that it really is not ocd and I really feel this way.


I would just ask for your prayers for this week.

 

[BeccaLynn]

I will pray for you, as I'm sure others will also here. I took Luvox for about 1 1/2 years. The psychologist started me out on a low dosage, to get into my system a little at a time without giving my body too much of a shock I think, and then moved up in milligrams. I think that I was on 25 mg, maybe, starting out, then 50mg, and then went up to 75mg. I don't remember how long I took the smaller dosages starting out, maybe about 2 weeks. I did notice a difference as far as the blasphemous thoughts I struggled with. I think that with OCD, anything that is important to us is in the "danger zone" as far as being attacked with our thoughts. That definitely can include your spouse/fiance. There are others who post here who have also struggled with similar thoughts. I pray God's best for you both.

Rebecca

 

[BeccaLynn]

I actually read both of your threads, but I meant to post this with the question you had concerning Luvox.

Rebecca

 

[gracealone]

Hey Midair,
Getting married is a large amount of stress and even positive stress can cause our OCD to flare up. Hang tough buddy and don't let the OCD push you around. When the accusations and doubt filled statements flood in just label them OCD spikes, remind yourself that the feelings of anxiety are only the result of your overactive fight or flight response and do your level best to refocus on something else.
I'm praying for you.... walk on brother.
Mitzi

Hi everyone. I feel like im going downhill again. If anyone does not know I have been struggling with ROCD lately. I was doing well for a couple of weeks, but now I feel like it wasn’t real. I would appreciate everyone’s prayers for the coming week. I am getting married in a week and I am having fears creep up on me. My fears are:

1) While my fiancé is gone for the week, my mood will improve while she is gone and therefore my ocd will use that against me Ex. “Look how happy you are when she is gone”

2) I fear that I will feel horrible my wedding and ruin everything.

3) My greatest fear would be that it really is not ocd and I really feel this way.


I would just ask for your prayers for this week.

 

[midair7231]

Thank you for your encouraging words! They mean a lot to me! In case you have not read my other post I'm taking 25 mg of Luvox once a day. Some other people mentioned that 25 mg a day is a low dose for Luvox. I just refilled my prescription and I think I will start taking 2 at a time until I talk to my doctor again to up the dosage. Hopefully doing that will help out a lot.

 

[RachelZ]

Hey Midair...know this is a while after you posted but just read this thread and wanted to say I really understand how grim ROCD can be. Like has already been said OCD wil attack what is important to you. Maybe it would help if you read my last post on my thread that you posted in? Something that happened this morning which really helped me see again how these feelings we get are not a good guage of what is real and what is worth taking notice of.

OCD could have stopped me getting married...it certainly got its oar in as the day approached...thankfully it didn't and we celebrated three years last week. I really pray God helps you and specifically that He shows you a way of discerning for yourself what is OCD thinking and what is not. Take care and hope the wedding goes brilliantly...Rachel

 

[OptimisticSmile]

Hey I can understand your concerns as both an ROCDer and newly wed. I was even posting on here the day I got married. I was afraid my wife was lying to me when she said she was a virgin may of had an abortion because she wrote a poem using symballism of a "bastard child". when the wedding night came around and there was physical proof that she was a virgin I felt really silly for obsessing about it so much.

 

[ObsessedButBlessed]

Midair, by now, you're married! Congratulations! I hope your wedding went smoothly. It is hard to get married when OCD is bugging us. Trust me I have had all those thoughts before. The important thing is to just continue seeking therapy and continue with your meds. Then you will be free to focus on your new marriage. I love being married...it's so wonderful, and I wouldn't trade it for the world, no matter how bad my OCD can get sometimes!!