ocd: do the compulsion!
me: no!
ocd: ok then! worry!
me: it is just ocd. and I wont worry.
ocd: you can get away with it, without doing the compulsion. and with no worries at all, for not doing it.
me: I know where you are getting at...
ocd: make a promise or a fake promise to God not to do the compulsion and use it as an excuse in order not to worry for not doing the compulsion.
me: no! my ocd worry is about making a promise to God. I do not want this!
ocd: why don't you just allow the thoughts of relief to happen in your head randomly? just allow them to happen. you want it! you want the relief. God knows that they are thoughts without your will so you wont be blamed. come on! just allow the thoughts to pop up in your head and you will be free from worrying. allow some random words without your will to pop up in the head of yours, let them be about making a fake promise to God not to do the compulsion. it will take you just a second to do that. then, pretend as if at affects you. that will make the worries not happen.
me: the usual trick of yours. you just want to relieve me in order to trap me later with more worries.
ocd: that or have worries for not doing the compulsion. or at least do the compulsion! make a choice! hurry!
me: oh a part of me somehow want to relieve itself from the worries. maybe for a second, if I just allow the thoughts to pop up in my head? hmm... God knows that they are thoughts without my will. God knows that sometimes I may play along with the ocd in order to leave me alone. I have prayed about it many times. I can forget all this and ignore it. but that wont save me from the worries. what should I dO?
ocd: allow the thoughts! it is easy! just for a second.
me: argh! maybe... a part of me says "promise not to do the compulsion". oh! the thoughts without my will just happened. now I should not to the compulsion! I am so relieved! wait! hang on! no! these are still thoughts without my will! wait! I do not want this!
ocd: ha! too late! you maybe allowed for a second some thoughts to pop up in your head about a promise to God. you had the chance not to do it but a part of yours maybe for a second due to frustration allowed the thoughts to randomly pop up. after they happened, you still had the chance to ignore them or tell God that they are still thoughts without yoru will but you acted as if the thoughts without your will affect you. you felt relieved! maybe made those thoughts without your will valid. maybe a part of yours made them on purpose for a second!
me: wait! no! I cant remember! everything happened so fast! they are thoughts without my will! I do not want this! there has been a mistake. my ocd worry is about making promises to God. and I try to ignore these thoughts. but now... argh! what happened? I just cant remember. maybe a part of me on purpose allowed the thoughts about a promise to God to pop up? I know they are thoughts without my will but maybe for a second a part of me allowed them to happen?
are the thoughts valid now or not?
me: no!
ocd: ok then! worry!
me: it is just ocd. and I wont worry.
ocd: you can get away with it, without doing the compulsion. and with no worries at all, for not doing it.
me: I know where you are getting at...
ocd: make a promise or a fake promise to God not to do the compulsion and use it as an excuse in order not to worry for not doing the compulsion.
me: no! my ocd worry is about making a promise to God. I do not want this!
ocd: why don't you just allow the thoughts of relief to happen in your head randomly? just allow them to happen. you want it! you want the relief. God knows that they are thoughts without your will so you wont be blamed. come on! just allow the thoughts to pop up in your head and you will be free from worrying. allow some random words without your will to pop up in the head of yours, let them be about making a fake promise to God not to do the compulsion. it will take you just a second to do that. then, pretend as if at affects you. that will make the worries not happen.
me: the usual trick of yours. you just want to relieve me in order to trap me later with more worries.
ocd: that or have worries for not doing the compulsion. or at least do the compulsion! make a choice! hurry!
me: oh a part of me somehow want to relieve itself from the worries. maybe for a second, if I just allow the thoughts to pop up in my head? hmm... God knows that they are thoughts without my will. God knows that sometimes I may play along with the ocd in order to leave me alone. I have prayed about it many times. I can forget all this and ignore it. but that wont save me from the worries. what should I dO?
ocd: allow the thoughts! it is easy! just for a second.
me: argh! maybe... a part of me says "promise not to do the compulsion". oh! the thoughts without my will just happened. now I should not to the compulsion! I am so relieved! wait! hang on! no! these are still thoughts without my will! wait! I do not want this!
ocd: ha! too late! you maybe allowed for a second some thoughts to pop up in your head about a promise to God. you had the chance not to do it but a part of yours maybe for a second due to frustration allowed the thoughts to randomly pop up. after they happened, you still had the chance to ignore them or tell God that they are still thoughts without yoru will but you acted as if the thoughts without your will affect you. you felt relieved! maybe made those thoughts without your will valid. maybe a part of yours made them on purpose for a second!
me: wait! no! I cant remember! everything happened so fast! they are thoughts without my will! I do not want this! there has been a mistake. my ocd worry is about making promises to God. and I try to ignore these thoughts. but now... argh! what happened? I just cant remember. maybe a part of me on purpose allowed the thoughts about a promise to God to pop up? I know they are thoughts without my will but maybe for a second a part of me allowed them to happen?
are the thoughts valid now or not?
