December 29 of this year my dad passed away at the age of 54.
For the past 3 years, he has been struggling with a brain tumor. This is quite a tough task for such a strong guy, as the brain is your core, and much is effected with a brain tumor like his. His was positioned in the lobe that controlled speech and congition. Not so nice.
When this occured 3 years ago, he had a simple biopsy to test the condition. Comes to find out, he responded to chemo very well and made a full recovery 9 months later.
However, in april of this year, the tumor struck in full force again. This time, the tumor DID NOT respond to chemo at all. They tried that treatment for many months to no avail. he elected to have a surgery.
Well, that didnt go so well. As i mentioned above, his tumor was positioned where speech and physical ability were connected. During the removal, speech nerves and other nerves were clipped and demaged. When he got out of surgery, his right side was paralyzed and he could not communicate. He went onto rehab at Kessler in NJ, regained phsyical but never fully had speech or cognition down.
They gave him various blood thinners sinc ehe developed a clot. However, this medicine was never fully watched, and he had a stroke. IN fact, he ended up going into a diabetic coma because of various medicines effecting his insulin.
Well now he was back in the hospital. He came out of the coma, went back in. You could tell things were hitting the fan. He went back to rehab, and was doing okay. However, he was never the same.
We had several options at the time after the last dose of rehab. Either pay for 24/7 care, put him in askilled nursing, or watch over him all the time. All 3 were no way to live. Plus, he was taking so much medication his insulin level was 4X what it should be, showing body parts were getting tired. This medicine controlled everything of his life, 8 different pills a few times a day.
This was not the way to live. This medicine was not even part of chemo if he needed it, and he was already so screwed up it was hard.
the last day he died, it wasnt because of the brain tumor. He had some blood rush to his brain and he forgot he was eating. He choked and they couldnt recuciate him, he didnt want to be anyhow. Even if they did, his quality of life after the loss of oxygen would not be so good for him.
Now some funny things ill mention here about God. The day he died, he was in a different state. A state of peace and serenity. My mom, brother and I all now recognized it was only his body that was with us then, his soul was in heaven.
my dads death was perfectly orchestrated. Yesterday he had so much peace that was never seen before everyone was amazed. He was already dead at this time as our family has come to realize. Body form was their, but he was already transitioning.
next, the priest came in to say a prayer 15 minutes before death. of all times, it seems pretty orchestrated to me. When the priest came in, he actually told the priest "God bless you." one of his last words.
the doctors actually has now realized their was another force at work. We recieved one phone call from a doctor in tears saying "i finally believe". It was a good way to go, he was their but his soul was in heaven.
it may sound wierd, but we were grieving before his death occured. Since we dealt with this for 3 years, we were grieving all the time. We were also nervous on what to do with him and so nervous at all times I came home from college but can now finally return.
I a actually happy t wasnt a slow death because of the tumor, as would have beenhprevelent in the future years. Even if they would have recuciated him, much of brain cells were lost. not a good way to live.
has anyone else actually felt relief from the loved ones death? im feeling more relieved for him now knowing he isnt in pain, in a better place, and with God then I ever have before. Since my whole family was under so much stress for the last three years, we can finally sort of move on and respect his life.
For the past 3 years, he has been struggling with a brain tumor. This is quite a tough task for such a strong guy, as the brain is your core, and much is effected with a brain tumor like his. His was positioned in the lobe that controlled speech and congition. Not so nice.
When this occured 3 years ago, he had a simple biopsy to test the condition. Comes to find out, he responded to chemo very well and made a full recovery 9 months later.
However, in april of this year, the tumor struck in full force again. This time, the tumor DID NOT respond to chemo at all. They tried that treatment for many months to no avail. he elected to have a surgery.
Well, that didnt go so well. As i mentioned above, his tumor was positioned where speech and physical ability were connected. During the removal, speech nerves and other nerves were clipped and demaged. When he got out of surgery, his right side was paralyzed and he could not communicate. He went onto rehab at Kessler in NJ, regained phsyical but never fully had speech or cognition down.
They gave him various blood thinners sinc ehe developed a clot. However, this medicine was never fully watched, and he had a stroke. IN fact, he ended up going into a diabetic coma because of various medicines effecting his insulin.
Well now he was back in the hospital. He came out of the coma, went back in. You could tell things were hitting the fan. He went back to rehab, and was doing okay. However, he was never the same.
We had several options at the time after the last dose of rehab. Either pay for 24/7 care, put him in askilled nursing, or watch over him all the time. All 3 were no way to live. Plus, he was taking so much medication his insulin level was 4X what it should be, showing body parts were getting tired. This medicine controlled everything of his life, 8 different pills a few times a day.
This was not the way to live. This medicine was not even part of chemo if he needed it, and he was already so screwed up it was hard.
the last day he died, it wasnt because of the brain tumor. He had some blood rush to his brain and he forgot he was eating. He choked and they couldnt recuciate him, he didnt want to be anyhow. Even if they did, his quality of life after the loss of oxygen would not be so good for him.
Now some funny things ill mention here about God. The day he died, he was in a different state. A state of peace and serenity. My mom, brother and I all now recognized it was only his body that was with us then, his soul was in heaven.
my dads death was perfectly orchestrated. Yesterday he had so much peace that was never seen before everyone was amazed. He was already dead at this time as our family has come to realize. Body form was their, but he was already transitioning.
next, the priest came in to say a prayer 15 minutes before death. of all times, it seems pretty orchestrated to me. When the priest came in, he actually told the priest "God bless you." one of his last words.
the doctors actually has now realized their was another force at work. We recieved one phone call from a doctor in tears saying "i finally believe". It was a good way to go, he was their but his soul was in heaven.
it may sound wierd, but we were grieving before his death occured. Since we dealt with this for 3 years, we were grieving all the time. We were also nervous on what to do with him and so nervous at all times I came home from college but can now finally return.
I a actually happy t wasnt a slow death because of the tumor, as would have beenhprevelent in the future years. Even if they would have recuciated him, much of brain cells were lost. not a good way to live.
has anyone else actually felt relief from the loved ones death? im feeling more relieved for him now knowing he isnt in pain, in a better place, and with God then I ever have before. Since my whole family was under so much stress for the last three years, we can finally sort of move on and respect his life.
