So over the course of about 4 years I have struggled with masturbation... I am completely ashamed of what I did but I had a dog help me with my masturbation... And this didn't just happen once... It has happened a few times and with different dogs... I never had intercourse. But I am completely ashamed and I don't honestly know why I did it or what I was thinking.... I asked God to forgive me after each time but for some reason kept doing it.... I just recently went through an emotional break down with myself and I repented of all those times I did that. It has been almost a year now since the last time that has happened... I know that if you repent God will forgive you but I can't seem to forgive myself or think somewhere in the back of my mind that I'm a disgusting person who's going to hell.... I lay awake at night from this and I don't know what to do... I have repented but I need help forgiving myself... What do I do??? Please help.... I have no one to turn too.. I would never tell anyone this secret. I want to recomit my life to God and live for him. I really do. I want to change and be a better person... I just want God to love me and not hate me... Like I said, please help me.. Please. ):