So, I made a huge mistake at work. I'm in the veterinary industry and was doing surgery and almost killed a patient. I'm relatively new to this company and have asked many times for training on the anesthetic machine (they're all different) but was never given it. After the event, I found out that there is a safety mechanism on the machine that would have prevented the situation from happening if I'd known about it.
We got the patient back and he went home after a few days in hospital. The owners are very understanding and my employer has accepted full responsibility for not providing adequate training. However, I still feel awful and am having real trouble coping with this. I'm praying a lot but am having a lot of trouble forgiving myself for this and I'm not sure what I'm going to do the next time I have to go into surgery...
I know God does not expect us to be perfect, and I would never deliberately hurt a patient, but this has really made me doubt myself and make me question the path I'm on and whether this is what God really wants me to do or if I should look for something else.
Has anyone else been here?
We got the patient back and he went home after a few days in hospital. The owners are very understanding and my employer has accepted full responsibility for not providing adequate training. However, I still feel awful and am having real trouble coping with this. I'm praying a lot but am having a lot of trouble forgiving myself for this and I'm not sure what I'm going to do the next time I have to go into surgery...
I know God does not expect us to be perfect, and I would never deliberately hurt a patient, but this has really made me doubt myself and make me question the path I'm on and whether this is what God really wants me to do or if I should look for something else.
Has anyone else been here?
