Missing my mommy...

[silverain82]

I am having a sad day today... I lost my mother on 6-5-03 suddenly to an accidental drug overdose. She was 46 years old, and I was 20. I always knew in the back of my mind that I would outlive my parents. I just never imagined losing her so soon...before I got married..had children, things like that. We were extremely close...she struggled with drug addiction her whole life and I was one of the only people that never gave up on her...because she was such a wonderful and loving person..her loving spirit touched everyone she met and she made such an impact on so many lives because of her caring nature...and I knew she wanted to stop the drugs more than anything...it just had too much of a hold on her and she couldn't stop. I think of her and miss her everyday of my life..I know she is at peace with God now...and no longer is suffering from her addiction. So knowing that makes me seem almost selfish in a way for me to still want her here with me. I know she is with me in spirit though. I feel her around me all the time... I miss her terribly. I am new here...this is my first post. I just wanted to share my story. God bless you all

 

[Lisa0315]

I am having a sad day today... I lost my mother on 6-5-03 suddenly to an accidental drug overdose. She was 46 years old, and I was 20. I always knew in the back of my mind that I would outlive my parents. I just never imagined losing her so soon...before I got married..had children, things like that. We were extremely close...she struggled with drug addiction her whole life and I was one of the only people that never gave up on her...because she was such a wonderful and loving person..her loving spirit touched everyone she met and she made such an impact on so many lives because of her caring nature...and I knew she wanted to stop the drugs more than anything...it just had too much of a hold on her and she couldn't stop. I think of her and miss her everyday of my life..I know she is at peace with God now...and no longer is suffering from her addiction. So knowing that makes me seem almost selfish in a way for me to still want her here with me. I know she is with me in spirit though. I feel her around me all the time... I miss her terribly. I am new here...this is my first post. I just wanted to share my story. God bless you all

Oh, sweetie, I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing with us. I hope it gives you some small comfort that I care. I will pray that the Lord will comfort you and help you endure this terrible tragedy.

Lisa

 

[Eponine]

I am having a sad day today... I lost my mother on 6-5-03 suddenly to an accidental drug overdose. She was 46 years old, and I was 20. I always knew in the back of my mind that I would outlive my parents. I just never imagined losing her so soon...before I got married..had children, things like that. We were extremely close...she struggled with drug addiction her whole life and I was one of the only people that never gave up on her...because she was such a wonderful and loving person..her loving spirit touched everyone she met and she made such an impact on so many lives because of her caring nature...and I knew she wanted to stop the drugs more than anything...it just had too much of a hold on her and she couldn't stop. I think of her and miss her everyday of my life..I know she is at peace with God now...and no longer is suffering from her addiction. So knowing that makes me seem almost selfish in a way for me to still want her here with me. I know she is with me in spirit though. I feel her around me all the time... I miss her terribly. I am new here...this is my first post. I just wanted to share my story. God bless you all

I'll be praying for you. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here.

 

[Wildwood]

Dear Silverain,

I'm praying that God will give you peace and comfort you. I'm blessed to still have my mom, and I can only imagine how much you hurt.

 

[ArmouredSaint]

sadly I am at a loss for words,again. Peace to you.I'm sorry.

 

[azzy]

I am having a sad day today... I lost my mother on 6-5-03 suddenly to an accidental drug overdose. She was 46 years old, and I was 20. I always knew in the back of my mind that I would outlive my parents. I just never imagined losing her so soon...before I got married..had children, things like that. We were extremely close...she struggled with drug addiction her whole life and I was one of the only people that never gave up on her...because she was such a wonderful and loving person..her loving spirit touched everyone she met and she made such an impact on so many lives because of her caring nature...and I knew she wanted to stop the drugs more than anything...it just had too much of a hold on her and she couldn't stop. I think of her and miss her everyday of my life..I know she is at peace with God now...and no longer is suffering from her addiction. So knowing that makes me seem almost selfish in a way for me to still want her here with me. I know she is with me in spirit though. I feel her around me all the time... I miss her terribly. I am new here...this is my first post. I just wanted to share my story. God bless you all

Bless your heart,May God bless you precious one,for never giving up on your mother,you will never know what kind of impact you had on her,till you see her again in heaven.And you should know,God never gave up on her either,he was able to fill her with love and still use her to be a blessing to you,despite her weakness.You see precious one,God is able to take what the devil means for our destruction,and turn it into a blessing.

In my humble opinion,it sounds to me like your mother was a great blessing to you,despite her weakness,was still able to impact you in a good way.And thats how God is,The devil always looses,and we as believers always win.
God is able to keep his own,faults and all,and no one is able to pluck us out of his mighty hand.Rejoice little one,your mother was used of God to make you the person you are today.It is when we are hurting,and sad,that we are more aware of the presence of God.And our minds are turned towards him in our moments of grief.

so,go ahead and grieve,this will come to pass,and one day God will wipe away all your sorrow,and your heart will forever sing.Bless you child of God.

 

[Anti Existance]

It's perfectly normal to what someone you love to be with you.That's not being selfish, your mother understands this completely and loves you in each and every possible way imaginable. She will always be in your heart, we are here to support you and to say ' you are never alone, and you are always loved '

 

[Tamara77777]

I am having a sad day today... I lost my mother on 6-5-03 suddenly to an accidental drug overdose. She was 46 years old, and I was 20. I always knew in the back of my mind that I would outlive my parents. I just never imagined losing her so soon...before I got married..had children, things like that. We were extremely close...she struggled with drug addiction her whole life and I was one of the only people that never gave up on her...because she was such a wonderful and loving person..her loving spirit touched everyone she met and she made such an impact on so many lives because of her caring nature...and I knew she wanted to stop the drugs more than anything...it just had too much of a hold on her and she couldn't stop. I think of her and miss her everyday of my life..I know she is at peace with God now...and no longer is suffering from her addiction. So knowing that makes me seem almost selfish in a way for me to still want her here with me. I know she is with me in spirit though. I feel her around me all the time... I miss her terribly. I am new here...this is my first post. I just wanted to share my story. God bless you all

Welcome to CF! I'm glad you shared this post...and to tell your story. God understands it better than any of us could, but I just wanted to tell you that I am sorry that your in that situation so young. It has to be a hard thing...I'm glad you can remember the good about your mom, and that you shared a closeness with her. It has to be hard, but may you find a closeness with the Father, and fulfillment in your heart in relationship with Him. God Bless!
God please give this child your peace and wrap your loving arm about them.. Lord be that parent this person needs...one to go to for advice and help and for direction...Lord bring sweet fellowship to this person and let them find you in a real and personal way in JESUS' mighty name. amen!