- Dec 13, 2015
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I did good with not mast. /not thinking about sex and having super lustful thoughts for about a month. I gave in twice just recently and feel bad, but not sure what else I can do to stop liking the way it feels/ being addicted.
Not only that I started writing again. Some of my characters cuss/ engage in sex (nothing super graphic & its related to the story, not just in there to be in there)...
I know what Paul says... He said in the scripture to those whose conscious is guilty and they do something anyway then it is a sin.
What I was trying to do was cut off everything not related to God so I could have nothing in my life to distract me, but I still couldn't hear God like I wanted and not only that I felt very blah like I had no personality or creativity without writing. I'm Spirit filled and everything too I just don't know why it feels like God/ life is indifferent towards me. I just want a relationship with God where I actually feel him constantly. I already speak in tongues/ feel the Holy Spirit when I pray, but I want the next level. I still feel like there's more that I need.
Not only that I started writing again. Some of my characters cuss/ engage in sex (nothing super graphic & its related to the story, not just in there to be in there)...
I know what Paul says... He said in the scripture to those whose conscious is guilty and they do something anyway then it is a sin.
What I was trying to do was cut off everything not related to God so I could have nothing in my life to distract me, but I still couldn't hear God like I wanted and not only that I felt very blah like I had no personality or creativity without writing. I'm Spirit filled and everything too I just don't know why it feels like God/ life is indifferent towards me. I just want a relationship with God where I actually feel him constantly. I already speak in tongues/ feel the Holy Spirit when I pray, but I want the next level. I still feel like there's more that I need.