- Oct 20, 2025
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This isn't going to be my verbose self.
I've been extremely unstable (internally, been able to put up a mask) and my faith is wavier than the ocean in a hurricane. Almost apostatized two days ago but the Holy Spirit dragged me kicking and screaming into a shouty prayer asking God for assurance. Yesterday I was reading "atheist to christian" stories to try to ground my belief rationally so I don't have a "faith lapse" and fall into sin blindly. Today I feel listless and confused. I want to cry to God for help but I also want to hide in bed and pretend nothing exists.
In general I feel incredibly weak. Please pray for me.
I've been extremely unstable (internally, been able to put up a mask) and my faith is wavier than the ocean in a hurricane. Almost apostatized two days ago but the Holy Spirit dragged me kicking and screaming into a shouty prayer asking God for assurance. Yesterday I was reading "atheist to christian" stories to try to ground my belief rationally so I don't have a "faith lapse" and fall into sin blindly. Today I feel listless and confused. I want to cry to God for help but I also want to hide in bed and pretend nothing exists.
In general I feel incredibly weak. Please pray for me.