I suffer from anxiety, when I get really worried about something I kind of panic, my heart-rate increases by at least by 40%, i sometimes start shivering, my voice can shake and i can also blush. I cant seem to control it. Anything can trigger this kind of anxiety, I can be watching a movie, or reading a book. Now when it comes to things like public speaking and going out or even dating no comments. I gotta take about 10 tablets of the medication my doctor prescribed
I know its something in my mind, It might even be a demonic curse. I know I also got issues from my childhood that I havent yet quite dealt with. Now I dont have a good counselor at the church, and sharing this kind of stuff with my parents would be so awkward. My chrsitian friends would definitely not understand me and my best friend Jesus knows all about it but I believe he wants me to seek other kind of help.
Anyway back to the medications, I have seen different doctors about this about 10 times, I have tried anything from antibiotics to antidepressants but nothing works. At the moment I am on a medication that slows down my heart-rate when I get anxious.
I believe that God can heal me and I guess one of the problems that I have is that im so concerned about what people may think of me that consciously or subconsciously I get so anxious especially when I have to be the center of attention or Im being checked out.
I know God has called me to do great things for Him and I know that regardless of what I do I will spend eternity in heaven but feel like I have failed God, my family my friends and myself. I cannot control my anxiety and I feel like a loser. Medication helps about 80% of the time but It has sort of become addicted to this medication.
If I was physical Ill I wouldnt be complaining but because its anxiety it really bothers me and makes me wonder why God put this burden on me and also makes me want to know what's the divine purpose of all this.
Any suggestions?
I know its something in my mind, It might even be a demonic curse. I know I also got issues from my childhood that I havent yet quite dealt with. Now I dont have a good counselor at the church, and sharing this kind of stuff with my parents would be so awkward. My chrsitian friends would definitely not understand me and my best friend Jesus knows all about it but I believe he wants me to seek other kind of help.
Anyway back to the medications, I have seen different doctors about this about 10 times, I have tried anything from antibiotics to antidepressants but nothing works. At the moment I am on a medication that slows down my heart-rate when I get anxious.
I believe that God can heal me and I guess one of the problems that I have is that im so concerned about what people may think of me that consciously or subconsciously I get so anxious especially when I have to be the center of attention or Im being checked out.
I know God has called me to do great things for Him and I know that regardless of what I do I will spend eternity in heaven but feel like I have failed God, my family my friends and myself. I cannot control my anxiety and I feel like a loser. Medication helps about 80% of the time but It has sort of become addicted to this medication.
If I was physical Ill I wouldnt be complaining but because its anxiety it really bothers me and makes me wonder why God put this burden on me and also makes me want to know what's the divine purpose of all this.
Any suggestions?