Me and my story and questions

[Laureah21]

Hi all,

I need to ask a question, and Im not sure where to put it here as Im new SO I will place it here and hope I get some answers. It is regarding Deliverance ministry. we don't seem to have it here in Australia and what it is and if I need it and what to look out for. Her his my testimony and current issues....
Not sure where to begin. So I will start at the end.
I came to Jesus this year in a very low moment. I was lying on the kitchen floor and yelled out to him to help me. I was suicidal and wanted to to leave life but I didn't really deep down. It was quiet a strange sensation.
It came from deeeeeep down, and appeared from nowhere, and I meant it like nothing I had ever meant in my life. That very instant, a weight lifted from me. I got up and thought I have to do something about this. This was something special.


After that I started getting SEVERE nightmares. I have alway been a dreamer. I dream in colour/Audio and when I was at my lowest I used to have waking hallucinations of spider webs (hypnogogic hallucinations according to my Dr)
These nightmares were something else. I still remember the last one. I was asleep and jolted awake to find my room black as black. I could see a very very large dark human shaped figure in my room. It had a wide brimmed hat on (haha strange but true). I have since read other people have had this experience

(scary)
I tried to pray to Jesus in my sleepy state but I couldn't even get his name out of my mouth, I eventually managed to say a pray in my mind. As soon as I started, the figure came over to my bed and in a HOT breathy growl said in my ear "you are mine" and disappeared.
The next morning I connected with a friend I know was Christian and husband is a pastor ( I go to their church). I said Im sorry this may sound absolutely bonkers but it was REAL I was so scared to go to sleep again. She said yes thats some spiritual warefare. I had never heard of this before. She invited me round to her church prayer group and they were so lovely and prayed over me, I had never been so petrified in my life and wanted to turn and run walking up to her house I was visably shaking. They asked me to if any of my ancestors had been a part of Freemasons. I said yes they had, the question surprised me. I always thought Freemasons were a community group. I had two Great Grandfathers. One was a Grand master and the other a lodge master.
Dream continued and grew worse. I decided to get Baptised. The night before, I was physically attacked.... I woke to someone holding my arms down. I was on my stomach and actually felt hands on my forearms. I freaked out and sat up in bed and something pushed my face into the pillow. Automatically reached out to Jesus again. It disappeared, but I woke with light scratch marks on me

, which my husband even noticed. Im worried people will think this is just me being mentally ill. I want to say that I do not tell anyone this not even my Drs. I hold down a high level full time job and come from a very lovely very normal childhood.

After baptism the attacks stopped being physical, but became nightmares. I dreamt of being attacked in my house, by unseen things.
I then started dreaming of having sex with actual hollywood style monsters. Dreaming of doing horrible things with them, being pinned down and enjoying it. Watching them murder people. Dreams of riding round on a heard of pigs with horrible faces. ETC ETC. It got to the point I was to scared to go to sleep.

History of me leading up to this. I was always a really happy and chilled kid. My family moved into an old farm house that made me change. I KNEW something wasn't right with it and I would have been only 10. I cried all the time and was deeply scared. I still remember my Dad saying "I will never let anything hurt you" I remember thinking what do you mean by ANYTHING Dad!! I know, you know this isn't of this world. Quiet deep for a 10 year old. Even my mom noticed and now comments saying that the house was "creepy" it had Egyptian symbols carved into the wall. SInce then I have always been aware of places and people that are not quiet right. I have also had psychic experiences through my teens.
I started to develop many illness. Asthma, Rheumatoid Arthritis, thyroid issues, Allergies, cancer of the womb, kidney issues. I then found out I was born with one kidney and half a uterous. I moved to London and I still remember now my downhill journey into Severe depression and anxiety. I went to Grey friars kirkyard in Edinburgh, as part or a tourist thing. (Most haunted place on earth, if you google it) After that I descended rapidly into depression. I have never known why as I have no cause whatsoever to have a mental illness, no family background or abuse etc.

I started to develop many illness. Asthma, Rheumatoid Arthritis, thyroid issues, Allergies, cancer of the womb, kidney issues. I then found out I was born with one kidney and half a uterous. I moved back to Australia and depression turned to severe anxiety with derealisation.

I turned to alternative medicine when real medicine didn't help. Psychics, tarot, meditation, yoga. Culminating in Reiki and then Shamanic healing (this worked, but then I got worse) I started to become suicidal and a Dr then diagnosed me with ADHD and bipolar type two. I nearly laughed and my family are so lost as to what happened to such a carefree child, they are looking for someone to blame.

I still am astonished that I have this. It doesnt feel like who I am. Since studying the bible more I have felt my mood lift, I pray constantly thanking God. My dreams have come back now again. Its like Satan cant get to me in the day as I pray for Jesus to lift me and fill me with Love, whenever I can.

At night I cant do that. I have been waking up to see a Siamese cat in my room as well!! It just sits in the corner and fades when I turn the light on. Also my husbands Nans sewing machine went off the other day when I was in a different room. It is an old singer and hasnt been used in about 20 years. It just turned itself on and was going so fast it nearly fell off the table. My dogs where standing there staring at it when I came in. Electrician friend had a look at it and cant figure out how it happened

Im really wanting to ask your opinion on deliverance ministry as I still feel tied down and attacked many days, especially days I study scripture. I am unsure how to do a Self deliverance one and it SCARES me to the bones, so I keep putting it off. Can anyone please give me some advice on self deliverance.

 

[discipler7]

I turned to alternative medicine when real medicine didn't help. Psychics, tarot, meditation, yoga. Culminating in Reiki and then Shamanic healing

.
Are you aware that some of the above practices are occultic and against God's Law at DEUT.18:9-15, ie psychics, tarot cards, shamanic healing, Freemasonry(cf; EXODUS.20:5), etc.? Such sinners/law-breakers will be cursed/punished by God with speech, hearing or mental disorders, eg MARK.7:32, ie God permits Satan to torment them since they consulted with the false prophets/agents of Satan/demons or their forefathers had worshipped Satan.

Like a normal sickness or disease, it can only be fully treated and cured if the actual cause is known or diagnosed by the Dr, ie it is no point just treating and alleviating the symptoms of the sickness with medication(for fever, pain, dizziness, swelling, insomnia, etc), eg the bacteria culprit has to be killed off with antibiotics.

So, maybe you need to repent and hopefully things will get better. Without the proper repentance, deliverance may not work.

Some Christians ignore the Old Testament laws to their own peril.

At ACTS.15:24-29, God has exempted new Gentile Christians from any law of Moses which is a burden, eg circumcision and kosher foods. They are not exempted from any law which is not a burden, esp morality laws, eg the Ten Commandments(EXODUS.20), DEUT.18:9-14, LEV.10:9 & 18:22, etc.
... In comparison, new Jewish Christians are required by God to continue to keep Moses Law, as many as possible, because it is not a burden to them.

Those "Christians" who wantonly or ignorantly commit sins/evil-deeds/law-breaking risk losing their salvation while suffering horribly for their sins, eg by cursing/blaspheming God/Jesus and dying, like the wife of Job. Be warned by DEUT.28:15, JOB, 1COR.5:5 & 11:30, 1JOHN.5:16-19, HEBREWS.10:26-31, 1COR.6:9-11, REV.22:12-15, ie sins/evil-deeds/law-breaking have consequences - some may lead to a horrible early death(= risk losing salvation/faith) and some may not, eg convicted murderers are usually executed and traffic offenders only have to pay a fine.

Being saved from hell after death rests solely on faith/trust/belief in Jesus as the Christ/Messiah/Savior.(JOHN.3:16, GALATIANS.2:16, eg LUKE.23:43)

 

[Little Lantern]

Greetings, @Laureah21, and welcome to CF! May you find great fellowship and godly encouragement here. The Name of Jesus is above every name and every knee will bow to Him. @discipler7 is right about occult practices being against God's will. Although those things may seem to offer temporary relief, folks who practice them usually report that their situations get even worse over time.

Since studying the bible more I have felt my mood lift, I pray constantly thanking God.

Very good habits. Also praising God in song can help a lot.
You might consider creating a thread on the prayer wall so that members can pray for you as you search for answers to these issues.

 

[joshcorn]

Greetings, @Laureah21, and welcome to CF! May you find great fellowship and godly encouragement here. The Name of Jesus is above every name and every knee will bow to Him. @discipler7 is right about occult practices being against God's will. Although those things may seem to offer temporary relief, folks who practice them usually report that their situations get even worse over time.

Very good habits. Also praising God in song can help a lot.
You might consider creating a thread on the prayer wall so that members can pray for you as you search for answers to these issues.

The advise to repent for the ocult practices is the right thing to do.That give the devil the right to kill you through sickness.Your night terrors are attacks from a spirit of fear.
Bible verse:
2 Timothy 1:7New King James Version (NKJV)

7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.


Fear is a spirit. I went thought that devil trick many years ago. This is how he keeps you under his control.
Bible verse:
1 John 4:4New King James Version (NKJV)

4 You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.

once I got that verse in my heart and believed it. I told that spirit to leave in Jesus Name and it never came back.Its called spiritual warfare 101.
I will be here if you need to talk again.

 

[tansy]

I just Googled deliverance ministries in Australia, and it would seem that there are some, though I don't know if any are near you...Australia's a huge country.
You do have to be a littel careful as well, as to whom you get help from, because sometimes some ministries or people are better than others.

 

[Breve]

Hi, I came across website and youtube channel of Mark Hemans who has the type of ministry you're searching for in Australia. From his videos you can tell he has a gentle and polite approach. I know nothing about him - you'll have to find out yourself whether his ministry works. While you track this person down to ask him your questions I suggest you do a bit of daily rebuking, standing on God's word and playing praise and worship music. I'm thinking that if you're spiritually "on guard" then it follows that any demonic oppression has to be weakened.

 

[christianforumsuser]

Someone consider moving this to mental health forum perhaps


You need to get the remission of sin. The Bible says after the fall of Adam that mankind is wicked and sinful. People might try to tell you to act good and soothsay flattering words but they haven't helped you have they. If you want to be like sinful men apart from God then won't He do that for you...but why not get the remission of sin in your heart and not take yourself and your thoughts, feelings, emotions, over the Word of God. Find someone who can actually teach the Bible, even if they aren't perfect in flesh as society sees but doesn't see. People hide so much and lie, but it's so horrible that they don't realize the huge problem. If they consider the works of John the Baptist and Jesus Christ as common you should consider if their heart is in the right place.

 

[christianforumsuser]

The wages of sin is death, as said in the Bible. I don't mean to scare you by that, and you seem to already be having quite a rough time. You really need to hear this, because you might just end up with the same remedies that don't help your heart but trick you into thinking you're making progress.
The entire Word of God is extremely absolutely important and crucial for you.
You need to understand and believe it, but as it's said it's solid food that even one born again of water and Spirit might be unable to eat so early on like that.
Now I don't find so much interest in your dreams you have in the world and I don't know what it means. Please find the genuine food and I'm not just talking about the worldly sort.

 

[christianforumsuser]

Lastly please nobody dare interfere as if they hold so much authority over me in this matter unless they really do. I'm open to hearing advice, but my point is to not prioritize how someone might be offended by me not telling someone to "rise up and walk" but urge them to find the "your sins are forgiven you". Someone should be ashamed if they would rebuke me wrongly. A doctor can try to help with the physical aspects and I'm no doctor...I might study. Anyways good luck, but my words aren't as powerful as His now are they.

 

[joshcorn]

Lastly please nobody dare interfere as if they hold so much authority over me in this matter unless they really do. I'm open to hearing advice, but my point is to not prioritize how someone might be offended by me not telling someone to "rise up and walk" but urge them to find the "your sins are forgiven you". Someone should be ashamed if they would rebuke me wrongly. A doctor can try to help with the physical aspects and I'm no doctor...I might study. Anyways good luck, but my words aren't as powerful as His now are they.

{Lastly please nobody dare interfere as if they hold so much authority over me in this matter unless they really do.}That kind of state call for a REBUKE

 

[christianforumsuser]

I don't understand what your words mean to you. Then again I could assume and perhaps you have also

I could guess you think that sounds arrogant. If you're saying you think I should be rebuked, I might not get into this on someone's thread like this. Just think a moment before you go throwing that around, seeing anyone talking as if they know or hold anything and you knock them down to size while the Pharisees keep having their festivals.

 

[Kay Irgens]

Greetings in Jesus mighty Name.
From my knowledge, your encounters with demonic, and dark spirit world beings attacking you, are real.
They can enter both trough sin and generational curses.

Good news is that they are doomed to go as you are serious about following Jesus. But they will try to hold on to you.

From your testemonie I see that He touched you. He loves you, and He will help you.

You must rebuke satan yourself also, and Jesus will drive all of it out, as you choose Him.

I highly support contacting Mark Hemans and the Jesus Encounter Ministries.
See the videos at YouTube, and attend their meetings. You will be free.
God bless you, and your family.

 

[Kay Irgens]

Hi all,

I need to ask a question, and Im not sure where to put it here as Im new SO I will place it here and hope I get some answers. It is regarding Deliverance ministry. we don't seem to have it here in Australia and what it is and if I need it and what to look out for. Her his my testimony and current issues....
Not sure where to begin. So I will start at the end.
I came to Jesus this year in a very low moment. I was lying on the kitchen floor and yelled out to him to help me. I was suicidal and wanted to to leave life but I didn't really deep down. It was quiet a strange sensation.
It came from deeeeeep down, and appeared from nowhere, and I meant it like nothing I had ever meant in my life. That very instant, a weight lifted from me. I got up and thought I have to do something about this. This was something special.


After that I started getting SEVERE nightmares. I have alway been a dreamer. I dream in colour/Audio and when I was at my lowest I used to have waking hallucinations of spider webs (hypnogogic hallucinations according to my Dr)
These nightmares were something else. I still remember the last one. I was asleep and jolted awake to find my room black as black. I could see a very very large dark human shaped figure in my room. It had a wide brimmed hat on (haha strange but true). I have since read other people have had this experience

(scary)
I tried to pray to Jesus in my sleepy state but I couldn't even get his name out of my mouth, I eventually managed to say a pray in my mind. As soon as I started, the figure came over to my bed and in a HOT breathy growl said in my ear "you are mine" and disappeared.
The next morning I connected with a friend I know was Christian and husband is a pastor ( I go to their church). I said Im sorry this may sound absolutely bonkers but it was REAL I was so scared to go to sleep again. She said yes thats some spiritual warefare. I had never heard of this before. She invited me round to her church prayer group and they were so lovely and prayed over me, I had never been so petrified in my life and wanted to turn and run walking up to her house I was visably shaking. They asked me to if any of my ancestors had been a part of Freemasons. I said yes they had, the question surprised me. I always thought Freemasons were a community group. I had two Great Grandfathers. One was a Grand master and the other a lodge master.
Dream continued and grew worse. I decided to get Baptised. The night before, I was physically attacked.... I woke to someone holding my arms down. I was on my stomach and actually felt hands on my forearms. I freaked out and sat up in bed and something pushed my face into the pillow. Automatically reached out to Jesus again. It disappeared, but I woke with light scratch marks on me

, which my husband even noticed. Im worried people will think this is just me being mentally ill. I want to say that I do not tell anyone this not even my Drs. I hold down a high level full time job and come from a very lovely very normal childhood.

After baptism the attacks stopped being physical, but became nightmares. I dreamt of being attacked in my house, by unseen things.
I then started dreaming of having sex with actual hollywood style monsters. Dreaming of doing horrible things with them, being pinned down and enjoying it. Watching them murder people. Dreams of riding round on a heard of pigs with horrible faces. ETC ETC. It got to the point I was to scared to go to sleep.

History of me leading up to this. I was always a really happy and chilled kid. My family moved into an old farm house that made me change. I KNEW something wasn't right with it and I would have been only 10. I cried all the time and was deeply scared. I still remember my Dad saying "I will never let anything hurt you" I remember thinking what do you mean by ANYTHING Dad!! I know, you know this isn't of this world. Quiet deep for a 10 year old. Even my mom noticed and now comments saying that the house was "creepy" it had Egyptian symbols carved into the wall. SInce then I have always been aware of places and people that are not quiet right. I have also had psychic experiences through my teens.
I started to develop many illness. Asthma, Rheumatoid Arthritis, thyroid issues, Allergies, cancer of the womb, kidney issues. I then found out I was born with one kidney and half a uterous. I moved to London and I still remember now my downhill journey into Severe depression and anxiety. I went to Grey friars kirkyard in Edinburgh, as part or a tourist thing. (Most haunted place on earth, if you google it) After that I descended rapidly into depression. I have never known why as I have no cause whatsoever to have a mental illness, no family background or abuse etc.

I started to develop many illness. Asthma, Rheumatoid Arthritis, thyroid issues, Allergies, cancer of the womb, kidney issues. I then found out I was born with one kidney and half a uterous. I moved back to Australia and depression turned to severe anxiety with derealisation.

I turned to alternative medicine when real medicine didn't help. Psychics, tarot, meditation, yoga. Culminating in Reiki and then Shamanic healing (this worked, but then I got worse) I started to become suicidal and a Dr then diagnosed me with ADHD and bipolar type two. I nearly laughed and my family are so lost as to what happened to such a carefree child, they are looking for someone to blame.

I still am astonished that I have this. It doesnt feel like who I am. Since studying the bible more I have felt my mood lift, I pray constantly thanking God. My dreams have come back now again. Its like Satan cant get to me in the day as I pray for Jesus to lift me and fill me with Love, whenever I can.

At night I cant do that. I have been waking up to see a Siamese cat in my room as well!! It just sits in the corner and fades when I turn the light on. Also my husbands Nans sewing machine went off the other day when I was in a different room. It is an old singer and hasnt been used in about 20 years. It just turned itself on and was going so fast it nearly fell off the table. My dogs where standing there staring at it when I came in. Electrician friend had a look at it and cant figure out how it happened

Im really wanting to ask your opinion on deliverance ministry as I still feel tied down and attacked many days, especially days I study scripture. I am unsure how to do a Self deliverance one and it SCARES me to the bones, so I keep putting it off. Can anyone please give me some advice on self deliverance.

Greetings in Jesus mighty Name.
From my knowledge, your encounters with demonic, and dark spirit world beings attacking you, are real.
They can enter both trough sin and generational curses.

Good news is that they are doomed to go as you are serious about following Jesus. But they will try to hold on to you.

From your testemonie I see that He touched you. He loves you, and He will help you.

You must rebuke satan yourself also, and Jesus will drive all of it out, as you choose Him.

I highly support contacting Mark Hemans and the Jesus Encounter Ministries.
See the videos at YouTube, and attend their meetings. You will be free.
God bless you, and your family.

 

[Deade]

Hello Laureah,
welcome to CF.

I hope you'll enjoy your stay here.