May contain triggers for some

[Daysoni]

I have been having such a hard time not fully slipping into my ED. I think the hardest part of it all is staying symptom free. It's so hard so hard to fight. The fight to stay healthy for me is harder then the fight to lose the weight. I know how bad I want to be with out the ED. I just don't know how to keep that want. It was this time last year that I fell fully to the ED and eneded up in the hospital. I don't want that I just don't like the weight that is on me right now. And do I have it in me to just lose a little bit or once again will reaching that goal not safice me?. I am embarrased and often humiliated by my appearance allowing it to keep me in and alone. I don't really know what to say right now. I just wanted to get some of it out hoping that it will help me in some way.

 

[goldenviolet]

bless your heart! i'm praying right now for you in this tug-o-war.

 

[inHisgripkim]

Hey Daysoni:
I know you know this picture well. That is
why I am posting it.

Though we are not with you in body, we are
with you in love.

O Lord, be thou our vision.
Turn our eyes away from this world and turn our sight on You.

We are with you Daysoni.
One of your cheerleaders.
Sissy Kim.







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[Daysoni]

Hey Daysoni:
I know you know this picture well. That is
why I am posting it.

Though we are not with you in body, we are
with you in love.

O Lord, be thou our vision.
Turn our eyes away from this world and turn our sight on You.

We are with you Daysoni.
One of your cheerleaders.
Sissy Kim.







​

I am so thankful for both of you Kim and Dee you have helped me aout emencily.

 

[Daysoni]

This week has been so hard fighting the symptoms. I don't want to slip into it again but on the other hand I do. I'm feeling that Im not strong enough. There is that warning that I have been told that each time thatI slipp the fall is going to be harder. Can I just do a little and that be it? I just want the temptation to be gone. And I hate when people say just think of your son, how would he feel, what if he knew? The truth is I don't need anymore guilt added to my life. That is why I'm here tons of guilt and feeling less then and not worhty. Don't use him to add to it.

 

[BrokenForHim]

I don't know you because I have just joined. But I do know that your not alone in this. Just remember that you can beat this, God wont give you anything you can't handle...go to him for your strength, thats the best advice I can give...He has already fought the battle against satan and won..don't try to fight this battle on your own because it will only get harder

 

[Daysoni]

I don't know you because I have just joined. But I do know that your not alone in this. Just remember that you can beat this, God wont give you anything you can't handle...go to him for your strength, thats the best advice I can give...He has already fought the battle against satan and won..don't try to fight this battle on your own because it will only get harder

Thank you for your reply it helps

 

[freedomsong]

[SIZE=+0]Hey! I totally understand your struggles. I have had an ED for about six years now. It started when I was in eighth grade and continues now that I am in college. Though I have received help and stopped the behavior for awhile, I have begun to be bulimic once again. Nobody knows that I have started this behavior again. I have really been praying for God's healing in my life. I will pray that God gives you strength to love yourself for who you are. I know this is very hard to do, but hang in there!! [/SIZE]

 

[Daysoni]

Tired of the struggle

 

[kamikat]

Daysoni, while I'm now on the opposite end of the struggle as you, I have been where you are. People say the same thing to me, don't you want your sons to grow up with a healthy mom. You're right, it just makes things worse.


Heavenly Father, physician of our souls and bodies, Who have sent Your only-begotten Son and our Lord Jesus Christ to heal every sickness and infirmity, visit and heal also Your servant Daysoni from all physical and spiritual ailments through the grace of Your Christ. Grant her patience in this sickness, strength of body and spirit, and recovery of health. Lord, You have taught us through Your word to pray for each other that we may be healed. I pray, heal Your servant Daysoni and grant to her the gift of complete health. For You are the source of healing and to You I give glory, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.

 

[Daysoni]

Daysoni, while I'm now on the opposite end of the struggle as you, I have been where you are. People say the same thing to me, don't you want your sons to grow up with a healthy mom. You're right, it just makes things worse.


Heavenly Father, physician of our souls and bodies, Who have sent Your only-begotten Son and our Lord Jesus Christ to heal every sickness and infirmity, visit and heal also Your servant Daysoni from all physical and spiritual ailments through the grace of Your Christ. Grant her patience in this sickness, strength of body and spirit, and recovery of health. Lord, You have taught us through Your word to pray for each other that we may be healed. I pray, heal Your servant Daysoni and grant to her the gift of complete health. For You are the source of healing and to You I give glory, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.

kamikat, Thank you for taking the time to post to me. While we might be on the opposite end the struggles are the same that dreaded 4 letter word FOOD. I pray for release in your life as well.

Blessings to you