Brother, "You are what your mind thinks. You are what your thoughts are". I recently attended a motivation seminar, and this was the caption. The motivator claims that we make up certain chemistry reaction within our bodies at the thought of something. Believe it? Yes, it does. If we think or focus on food, just when our tummy is empty, we shall be hungry, and the food we thought we should have, often at times, we have it. Almost always its what we're thinking of that is being evolved. This is human and God created us with such chemistry!
Its the mind that is being driven by Satan today to make mankind thing it is perfectly "NORMAL" and safe to do anything that is "lighter sin" such as masturbation. Perhaps by talking about it now, we can imagine there is no such thing as "lighter sin" and "heavier sin". A sin is a sin. Aren't we all bound to it unless we decide to break free?
I am in no position to judge you either. We are all weak in flesh. But we cannot afford to allow Satan to gain credit in devouring our minds. Satan can use technology to spread porn via MANKIND's brains and skills. So how much smarter is the ancient serpent to use mankind's Scientists to proclaim masturbation as good for health. They have created so much Rx medication that have side effects and yet we, consume them just because we believe in their "SCIENTIST" position.
I have seen many friends spend thousands of dollars for surgeries today. Not all doctors are genuine, as mostly are reaping money from the patients even for a small problem with health. Its the era where professionals are being used to trick us into believing stuff. Its psychology, brother. If we claim a normal somebody said such and such, we will take it ever so lightly. But if the same thing is said by a somebody as a scientist or in the professional area, we will make a big statement of it to consider it good and appropriate.
ITs up to your judgemental mind in deciding if there is guilt conscious when you touch or not. There will be some voice speaking to you when you really want to deeply ponder on something.
Think for yourself, Brother and ponder upon your thoughts.