loosing grip

[ChristInAction]

I'm loosing grip, not only on beating SI.
But my whole world.
My whole life, I've wanted to help people. It doesnt matter who it is, what happened, I'll be there for them, even if i dont like them.
This week we've had city experience, which means we dont wear uniform & go into the city to do stuff all week, & I've been dressing perfectly, taking forever just to impress everyone else. Its not just this week ether, i always wear makeup & everything perfect even at church so people wont leave me out.
I've not been eatting, over exersizing & throwing up wat I do eat.

I'm sick of everything. I wanna cut. BLAH!!!

 

[brokenwings27]

You've helped me..
And I'm sure you've helped a lot of people
Don't give up

 

[Mr.Cheese]

There is a quote that has stuck with me from an old actor named Lee Marvin It goes, "If I appeal to anyone I hope it's the man who picks up the garbage."
For me, dressed up is wearing a pair of wasted vans, jeans, and a t-shirt that may or may not have a hole in it.
The world around is dark and dying. The fields are ripe for harvest. We would all do a better job if we didn't spend all of our time keeping up appearances and wearing masks.
If someone thinks it's my job to impress them then I am going to consistently disappoint them.

Jesus is the only one who matters. Looking good at church neither serves Him nor helps the people you want to help.

 

[ChristInAction]

I'm also loosing faith.
starting to believe there isnt a God...

last night i was so upset i started trying to cut with a button. didnt work of corse.

 

[mariachigirl]

Those are for you hun! Take it easy on yourself, and keep posting. Remember, these moments do pass.