I have posted about this guy before. Since then we have become exclusive and he just visited me for the 1st time. I cannot stamp out this feeling of disconnect (when apart) which to me is more then the miles btw us. I felt this way shortly before I ended my 1st serious relationship, where we saw each other every day. The difference between my bf and my ex is the fact that at least my bf tries, while my ex would try for a day or 2, stop, then get annoyed when I brought it back up. My bf listens and he is a little bit better. Everyday is different, sometimes sweet messages, other times few messages. I kind of get the feeling that he isn't afraid of me walking away because the life I lead is quiet and I come across other potential guys very little, I guess I could say I don't put myself out there. He says he values me and is lucky to have a girl like me, but he doesn't really act on it. I cherish him and appreciate him, so I show that to him by messaging him often and thinking about him.
On days where he doesn't message me (we use FB chat) and I know his account is active (posting and liking stuff), my eyes wander. I know he isn't busy, he works less then I do and he isn't in school. I feel bad, but I cannot help it, especially when it happens several times. I wonder if there could be something better for me out there, that he isn't the only guy out there for me. One day when he didn't message me at all, a guy started hitting on me and that felt amazing, I didn't seek the guy out, he happened to be in the bar where my friends and I were.
I took him leaving very hard. When he got home though, everything seemed to just fall back into place for him. Granted he did miss me, but almost like a passing thought. He told me I took his leaving harder then I should have, that yes I should miss him, but my world shouldn't end. We discussed very serious stuff and he actually felt bad that may not be able to return everything I give.
I have prayed about this a lot and so far nothing has pointed me to break it off w/him, almost as though I'm meant to stick it out a little longer, not to make a rash decision. W/my ex and another guy I dated, I prayed a lot as well when things started to fall apart and they ended up falling apart. I don't want to compare myself to any other couples, but I get the feeling this is not how a successful LDR runs. I read stories of people who call each other every day, how both people cry when parting etc, I guess I'm a hopeless romantic. I just want a man who cares for me, not be in a relationship where I'm crazy about a guy and he can take it or leave it. I'm not paranoid about him cheating or finding another person, the thing I'm worried about is his lack of effort. Him leaving hit me hard because prior to his arrival, I had a huge falling out w/no ex best friend. This argument was over my bf, she saw stuff on his FB that she didn't like and automatically started spreading false things about him to other friends. She has never met him before and she didn't come over for my birthday because he would be there. This def affected me as I do feel lonely as well, I do have other friends, but this group I hung out w/the most.
On days where he doesn't message me (we use FB chat) and I know his account is active (posting and liking stuff), my eyes wander. I know he isn't busy, he works less then I do and he isn't in school. I feel bad, but I cannot help it, especially when it happens several times. I wonder if there could be something better for me out there, that he isn't the only guy out there for me. One day when he didn't message me at all, a guy started hitting on me and that felt amazing, I didn't seek the guy out, he happened to be in the bar where my friends and I were.
I took him leaving very hard. When he got home though, everything seemed to just fall back into place for him. Granted he did miss me, but almost like a passing thought. He told me I took his leaving harder then I should have, that yes I should miss him, but my world shouldn't end. We discussed very serious stuff and he actually felt bad that may not be able to return everything I give.
I have prayed about this a lot and so far nothing has pointed me to break it off w/him, almost as though I'm meant to stick it out a little longer, not to make a rash decision. W/my ex and another guy I dated, I prayed a lot as well when things started to fall apart and they ended up falling apart. I don't want to compare myself to any other couples, but I get the feeling this is not how a successful LDR runs. I read stories of people who call each other every day, how both people cry when parting etc, I guess I'm a hopeless romantic. I just want a man who cares for me, not be in a relationship where I'm crazy about a guy and he can take it or leave it. I'm not paranoid about him cheating or finding another person, the thing I'm worried about is his lack of effort. Him leaving hit me hard because prior to his arrival, I had a huge falling out w/no ex best friend. This argument was over my bf, she saw stuff on his FB that she didn't like and automatically started spreading false things about him to other friends. She has never met him before and she didn't come over for my birthday because he would be there. This def affected me as I do feel lonely as well, I do have other friends, but this group I hung out w/the most.
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