...Living in Violation...

[LilNifer04]

every new day that goes by is one more day further away from that day my life was changed.

it was raining one night in april and i was at a friends house with some of his family. the cookout went fine, we shared laughs and had fun. but then at the split second that everything seemed to be going good his personality took a 180 degree turn around and his personality completely changed. i went to the bathroom and decided to leave, he came in the bathroom and pulled my pants completely off of my, put a tie over my mouth and pushed me into the bedroom. he did his thing and completely finished. mortified i ran out the door forgot everything but my purse and whatever was in it.

i drove home faster than i have ever drove home before. i am talking 90 to 100 mph. it took me 45 minutes to get home and i ran into my room and went to bed and hoped it would all go away. i woke up the next morning and it hit me that i should of went to the police station. i went that day and a rape kit was issued but it had been more than 24 hours so it came back negative. so it was basically he said she said and nothing came of a case.

as someone who has been through a situation like this the thing that kept me going is the constant love and compassion of my family. i also have looked at it as lust and love are completely different. and i didnt have sex because i wanted to. i had sex because i had no choice. my advice to anyone that goes through this is to stay strong realize that it wasnt your fault and you didnt do anything wrong. Fall back on your family, and friends and trust in God to bring you through

~Jenn

 

[prayingwoman]

That must have been awful for you. I was attacked at about the same age in 1979. I was left for dead after being assaulted, tortured and run over with his car. I had to splint my own leg with a tree limb and part of my clothing. Then I had to crawl half a mile to houses to get help. it was a horrible experience but I made it through. It has taken years to deal with it. I would never want to go through that again but it has taught me and made me who I am today. I have learned to be understanding, and caring and have left the bitterness and anger behind. I thank God for bringing me through it and giving me a wonderful husband to help the healing process. We will survive my dear and be stronger because of it!

 

[Protinus]

Lilnifer and prayingwoman: Your strength and courage is gratifying and your testimony is so helpful to those that have suffered as you have. Please make this forum an oasis for your soul so that you can come to recharge and hopefully offer glimpses of hope through your own stories.

Bless you both and may He keep you.

 

[UnitynLove]

I am praying for you my sister, I know how it feels to be taken advantage of but thank God he as delievered me from this

 

[shazabella]

((((((Jenn& prayingwoman))))))))),

Your stories were shared with such faith and such strong convictions and thankyou for sharing them.

- Shaz