Little Update :D

[-GodsGirl-]

So I've been reading the book of John for the past couple days, breaking up a chapter into 2 days. And I've been feeling good like I'm growing closer to God and I'm getting to know Jesus better. I've just been a little terrified about the things that have been going on in the world. Like it's scary stuff. And I have some friends who don't really believe in God and I've been ministering to them a little so I'm happy about that

I've just been trying to focus on God/Jesus/Holy Spirit, and not on the things that are going on in this world. Because it gives me anxiety and makes me worry so I don't think God wants me focusing on that stuff but rather him. I've been really struggling about this feeling thing. I've always struggled with it. Like 'feeling' like God doesn't listen to me or 'feeling' like he's not there. But I've been praying about it and it's a hard thing to over come.

I guess that's where faith comes into play. Having faith he is listening and he is there. I just want more faith in him. I really do. And I want him to use me. So I've been praying about that. Only thing is I feel bad when I go a day without reading the bible. Like yesterday I was out doing stuff almost the whole day and then when I got back I just wanted to sleep and so I listened to a chapter on my phone. But it didn't feel the same as actually opening up my bible and writing notes.

And I know having a relationship with God takes time. But even tho I know that it gets frustrating like will I ever really know him or really trust in him or really believe in him. Stuff like that.

So if you could pray for me that would be great!

I've also been praying God will give me a desire to want to spend time with him everyday and that he'd light a fire in my soul for him. I'm hoping he will do those things for me

 

[FanthatSpark]

What is great is taking self out of the way before reading scripture . Anxiety, judgment and all adverse feelings are self getting in the way. For me, I pray to remove selfs faults and be filled with Gods love. At times, quality over quantity of scripture arises where just 1 verse hooks to another verse in a different book that reveals a mystery to self. These mysteries are profound to self because self never got out of the way to... hear, in past times we read that very same verse. Clearing the mind to approach the word in love to self produces love out of self. Not saying you . This is just a short testimony on me. At first I gobbled up the Word in quantitative state, judged it, and it snapped my mind to make sin my first love.

It is assumed I am conversing with a young one on fire with the lord. This in turn makes us gobble up the Word chapters at a time. Some advise , do not judge what you read as I did.

So, lets try an experiment... Pray to God before opening the bible to be filled with Gods love, soak self in that love for a season. This is to change perception of the Word and in a season...life. No matter where, bible study, church, by ones self, etc... Pray to empty the mind/self and be filled with Gods love.

There is no fear in love 1 John 4:18 or anxiety or judgment or I feel God does not hear me which produces anger or disappointment, right? Hope there is something edifying for Godsgirl or any in this missive.

 

[Hidden In Him]

I guess that's where faith comes into play. Having faith he is listening and he is there. I just want more faith in him. I really do. And I want him to use me. So I've been praying about that. Only thing is I feel bad when I go a day without reading the bible.

Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. And the more word you know, the more He can use you to minister to others.

About feeling bad going a day without reading the word, it's kinda like being at Jesus' feet, so you will have that feeling of missing Him. But always remember that you can pray to Him also on days when you're not sure you are ready to study again.

And I know having a relationship with God takes time. But even tho I know that it gets frustrating like will I ever really know him or really trust in him or really believe in him. Stuff like that.

You are already getting to know Him, so don't let the scary things in the world distract you from that. They will still be scaring people thirty years from now, even more so probably. That's how they stay in business. But not being up to studying is one thing. Allowing yourself to be distracted by the world's nonsense is another.

So just keep up the good work. You're doing great!

 

[-GodsGirl-]

What is great is taking self out of the way before reading scripture . Anxiety, judgment and all adverse feelings are self getting in the way. For me, I pray to remove selfs faults and be filled with Gods love. At times, quality over quantity of scripture arises where just 1 verse hooks to another verse in a different book that reveals a mystery to self. These mysteries are profound to self because self never got out of the way to... hear, in past times we read that very same verse. Clearing the mind to approach the word in love to self produces love out of self. Not saying you . This is just a short testimony on me. At first I gobbled up the Word in quantitative state, judged it, and it snapped my mind to make sin my first love.

It is assumed I am conversing with a young one on fire with the lord. This in turn makes us gobble up the Word chapters at a time. Some advise , do not judge what you read as I did.

So, lets try an experiment... Pray to God before opening the bible to be filled with Gods love, soak self in that love for a season. This is to change perception of the Word and in a season...life. No matter where, bible study, church, by ones self, etc... Pray to empty the mind/self and be filled with Gods love.

There is no fear in love 1 John 4:18 or anxiety or judgment or I feel God does not hear me which produces anger or disappointment, right? Hope there is something edifying for Godsgirl or any in this missive.

Thank you for this! I've never thought to pray about that before reading the bible . It sounds like something that would be very beneficial for me thank you for suggesting that! I will definetely do this!

 

[-GodsGirl-]

Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. And the more word you know, the more He can use you to minister to others.

About feeling bad going a day without reading the word, it's kinda like being at Jesus' feet, so you will have that feeling of missing Him. But always remember that you can pray to Him also on days when you're not sure you are ready to study again.


You are already getting to know Him, so don't let the scary things in the world distract you from that. They will still be scaring people thirty years from now, even more so probably. That's how they stay in business. But not being up to studying is one thing. Allowing yourself to be distracted by the world's nonsense is another.

So just keep up the good work. You're doing great!

Thanks for the encouraging words!

 

[FanthatSpark]

Thank you for this! I've never thought to pray about that before reading the bible . It sounds like something that would be very beneficial for me thank you for suggesting that! I will definetely do this!

You bet . I am going on assumption the Holy Spirit has visited you. If not, it will . The following is testimony on self yet some things may match up for ya in different circumstances but same result. Some things learned... A church and mankind can not teach Spirit, this realm is for us and God. A church can introduce us to the Spirit (called baptism) however here is where "I" went wrong... For me being 12 years of age the Preacher was my God like my parents were and these three were firstly on the love bracket. This in turn made what they said...Truth. So, the preacher teaches Spirit under guilt, "Hell fire if I don't___ ". This helped snap my mind to put sin firstly on the love bracket. Spirit does not dwell in guilt, judgment of self or another,disappointment, anger, low self esteem but my preacher and parents did these so I did it too. Mankind produces low self by affirming our flaws (even our parents do this in sincere ignorance) and in time it becomes a belief in self for the people we love more than God affirm our flaws = judgment.

All that above was brought too the light in prayer when God put in my mind "Who told you , you are naked/flawed" Genesis. Mankind I say. God puts verses in my head ... Judge not lest I be judged (in reverse order that mankind has judged me and thus I judged mankind). Matthew 18:6..And then the big one ... Matthew 22:37-39 .This verse caused a profound change in love bracket order but skewed for a season for self needed to soak in Gods love where there is no affirmation of flaws for flaws... are. Romans 3:10.

My mind of judgment celebrated Matthew 18:6 for a season in its not my fault...yet, that is judgment. What is a mind of forgiveness? This took a long season in Romans 12:2 to restructure this mind to the very id in prayer, Word (with new perception...Love) and God to show me he/she is me. Sin has no meter on it in rating with God. Thus the celebration in Matthew 18:6 turned to compassion for their ... sincere ignorance. I must forgive so i can be forgiven Mark 11:25.

In this format these things seem instantaneous but it takes time to change a well taught mind to trash every thing it has learned and start over with God firstly in everything. Still learning today to perfect love .

In closing, look at the cherry picking of scripture applied to self. It is said context is key but I beg to differ that the bible was written for the individual to show us the truth to selves in many situations the bible speaks of. Self must come first (a season to bask in Gods love and love God as he loves us to the very id of the mind) and these will manifest outwardly to mankind Galatians 5:22-23. For self took the seasons in sequester with God, prayer and Word and applied it to self... The individual.

So, love self like this 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 for God loves us like that . Forgiving self is love, for God already did it. to all and thanks for the platform to teach myself and a hope another sees a word of life .

 

[FanthatSpark]

Disclaimer ,

The above post is not to down play a church or the preachers in it. Church is key to introduction to the Spirit and knowledge . It is up to the individual that the introduction came through God not the personage. The church is for good deeds after said intro. No man/woman can teach Spirit for it is Gods realm to infuse in us on a personal basis in perfecting love. Me included .

 

[Swan7]

I've just been trying to focus on God/Jesus/Holy Spirit, and not on the things that are going on in this world. Because it gives me anxiety and makes me worry so I don't think God wants me focusing on that stuff but rather him. I've been really struggling about this feeling thing. I've always struggled with it. Like 'feeling' like God doesn't listen to me or 'feeling' like he's not there. But I've been praying about it and it's a hard thing to over come.

Matthew 10:28 and Luke 12:14
The feeling you have been describing sounds a lot like the accuser. Satan doesn't want God's people to have a relationship with Him. Don't listen to the condemnations of Satan's whispers. Keep praying and remember that Christ is already victorious. Through Him are we also!

I guess that's where faith comes into play. Having faith he is listening and he is there. I just want more faith in him. I really do. And I want him to use me. So I've been praying about that. Only thing is I feel bad when I go a day without reading the bible. Like yesterday I was out doing stuff almost the whole day and then when I got back I just wanted to sleep and so I listened to a chapter on my phone. But it didn't feel the same as actually opening up my bible and writing notes.

I'm not sure if your feeling bad is a result of something you are or are not doing. Ask God about that, test the spirit thereof if it's truly coming from God and not the wiles of the devil. Yes, faith does come into play always! We do not walk by sight, but by faith. 2 Corinthians 5:7
Remember to walk in the spirit and not by the flesh. Galatians 5:16-18

And I know having a relationship with God takes time. But even tho I know that it gets frustrating like will I ever really know him or really trust in him or really believe in him. Stuff like that.

It can take time, but God works in everyone differently. I'll be honest, if we don't struggle, we aren't growing lol! So I can definitely see you are doing just that! Keep your eyes on God and His Kingdom, enduring until the end. We all grow in seasons.

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

Hi -GodsGirl- welcome to the forum. You've been given such great advise already that the only thing I can think of to add is that His love often brings tears of gratitude because He is truly the only One that loves us in our weakness. Often holding ourselves closer to His love is needed as much as holding ourselves to His word.
Again welcome to the forum and God bless your time here. s

 

[W2L]

So I've been reading the book of John for the past couple days, breaking up a chapter into 2 days. And I've been feeling good like I'm growing closer to God and I'm getting to know Jesus better. I've just been a little terrified about the things that have been going on in the world. Like it's scary stuff. And I have some friends who don't really believe in God and I've been ministering to them a little so I'm happy about that

I've just been trying to focus on God/Jesus/Holy Spirit, and not on the things that are going on in this world. Because it gives me anxiety and makes me worry so I don't think God wants me focusing on that stuff but rather him. I've been really struggling about this feeling thing. I've always struggled with it. Like 'feeling' like God doesn't listen to me or 'feeling' like he's not there. But I've been praying about it and it's a hard thing to over come.

I guess that's where faith comes into play. Having faith he is listening and he is there. I just want more faith in him. I really do. And I want him to use me. So I've been praying about that. Only thing is I feel bad when I go a day without reading the bible. Like yesterday I was out doing stuff almost the whole day and then when I got back I just wanted to sleep and so I listened to a chapter on my phone. But it didn't feel the same as actually opening up my bible and writing notes.

And I know having a relationship with God takes time. But even tho I know that it gets frustrating like will I ever really know him or really trust in him or really believe in him. Stuff like that.

So if you could pray for me that would be great!

I've also been praying God will give me a desire to want to spend time with him everyday and that he'd light a fire in my soul for him. I'm hoping he will do those things for me

Philippians 4:8-9New King James Version (NKJV)
Meditate on These Things
8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. 9 The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.