Life sucks

[icredrum]

Just want to die. nothing makes me happy anymore . husband doesn't care or loveme. i don't hav desire for life ornothing. pray my husband forgive me and find happinesselse where..which he doing. thanks.
don't care at all..no prayer nothing

 

[Tigger45]

May the Lord's face shine upon you.

 

[alien444]

Have you seen a Dr. for depression?

 

[StephanieSomer]

Probably the most common expectation that people have is that someone else will make them happy. It's a lie. It's never been true, and never will be. Contentment does not come from outside, it's from within. Phil 4:11, "11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content." Nothing outside of you can create contentedness, or discontent. It's a choice we each make ourselves. True contentment is found in no other place than in the knowledge of God's acceptance of us as we are through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. With that knowledge, we cannot be discontent. I have found that knowledge and discontent to be mutually exclusive. Whenever I begin to feel negative, I go back to the point of knowledge and remember all He has provided for me, and the negative feelings evaporate because they are meaningless. He said "I am the way, the truth, and the life." If He truly is my life, as He said, then nothing else can touch my heart to tear me down. Another gem He left us was, "I have come that they might have life and have it more abundantly." This verse is often misread to indicate that God promises an abundance of things. "Abundantly" refers not to things or people, but life. Depression is the antithesis of life. It is an attitude of death, as you yourself have already stated in your OP. I spent many years depressed, so I am well acquainted with it and how it can cloud your vision from seeing God's goodness. The release from depression is in knowing Christ. It's not immediate, but it is the path out. Small wonder that a common prayer of Paul for his converts was "I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, and his incomparably great power for us who believe." Eph 1:17-19a

I will be praying this for you. Don't give up.

 

[RuthD]

I am praying for you and your husband. Please see a doctor.

 

[Criada]

Praying for you sister.
Please see your doctor

 

[ToBeBlessed]

It sounds like you have a lot happening right now in your life. Sometimes it is hard to figure it all out on our own. I think counseling may help you also.

Let us know how you are doing.

 

[icredrum]

I DO SEE A DOCTOR. STILL DOESN'T HELP. IF I'M MEDICATED TOO MUCH I CUT MYSELF INORDER TO FEEL. MY LIFE HAS BEEN FULL OF HEARTACHE. I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE A HEART. MY OTHR HALF CAN HAVE AN I DON'T CARE ATTITUDE. DON'T NOE WHAT TO DO?
SHOULD I PLAY AROUND LIKE MY PARTNER DOES OR JUST CUT AND RELIVE PRESURE?

 

[ToBeBlessed]

I DO SEE A DOCTOR. STILL DOESN'T HELP. IF I'M MEDICATED TOO MUCH I CUT MYSELF INORDER TO FEEL. MY LIFE HAS BEEN FULL OF HEARTACHE. I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE A HEART. MY OTHR HALF CAN HAVE AN I DON'T CARE ATTITUDE. DON'T NOE WHAT TO DO?
SHOULD I PLAY AROUND LIKE MY PARTNER DOES OR JUST CUT AND RELIVE PRESURE?

One thing I have learned being clinically depressed for 15 years is that medication reacts differently to each person. A medication that works for one person doesn't necessarily work for another.

Have you seen a doctor to talk about your medication? Sometimes after a period of time, for me it was 4 years, our body can become use to medication or something in our own body chemistry can change.

What once was a great medication for us, that helped and was effective can become ineffective for a variety of reasons.

I would like to see you get your medication evaluated and maybe try something else. If it is not helping, than find something that will.