Hi Friends,
OCD is a true roller coaster. As my day filled with obsessive thinking winds down and I reflect on my fears of blasphemous thoughts and losing salvation, I realize I need to recognize (moreover, praise) the Sovereignty of God.
God is the one who saves through His beautiful plan accomplished in Jesus. What else can we do? Upon whom does our salvation rest: Christ or our ability to control our thoughts?
We are correct in thinking we are unworthy of our salvation, but it's here and although it seems to good to be true, it's ours. God's will to save us is so strong, that we cannot resist it. His call has brought us here. We are all struggling because we are perfectionists and think that we have to "do" or "not do" something to be worthy. That thinking makes us pretty big and God pretty small. Therein perhaps lies the real sin, pride. I am not assigning blame. It's partially our condition, but partially our human nature. We try to "fix" or undo our thoughts, which leads to more obsessive thinking.
"Letting go and letting God" as they say is the best we can do. Humbling ourselves before the Lord and asking Him to take our brokeness and fix it is the first step and I have to repeat it over and over for myself. The next step is to TRUST that He will fix it. We obviously cannot fix it. But isn't this true freedom, knowing that we don't have to fix it? We have a God who is so great and mighty that not only can He fix it, but He wants to fix it. All we have to do is ask!
May we "let go and let God."
OCD is a true roller coaster. As my day filled with obsessive thinking winds down and I reflect on my fears of blasphemous thoughts and losing salvation, I realize I need to recognize (moreover, praise) the Sovereignty of God.
God is the one who saves through His beautiful plan accomplished in Jesus. What else can we do? Upon whom does our salvation rest: Christ or our ability to control our thoughts?
We are correct in thinking we are unworthy of our salvation, but it's here and although it seems to good to be true, it's ours. God's will to save us is so strong, that we cannot resist it. His call has brought us here. We are all struggling because we are perfectionists and think that we have to "do" or "not do" something to be worthy. That thinking makes us pretty big and God pretty small. Therein perhaps lies the real sin, pride. I am not assigning blame. It's partially our condition, but partially our human nature. We try to "fix" or undo our thoughts, which leads to more obsessive thinking.
"Letting go and letting God" as they say is the best we can do. Humbling ourselves before the Lord and asking Him to take our brokeness and fix it is the first step and I have to repeat it over and over for myself. The next step is to TRUST that He will fix it. We obviously cannot fix it. But isn't this true freedom, knowing that we don't have to fix it? We have a God who is so great and mighty that not only can He fix it, but He wants to fix it. All we have to do is ask!
May we "let go and let God."
