Kinda Blue

[SweetLyn]

I dont know where else to post so I figured this might be a good place since I am amongst fellow christians..
Feeling a bit blue lately, and i do have Depression, for a while i was taking meds(but stopped) too many side effects. I started praying and reading many books such as Joyce meyers ect. they always help me.
My situation is My kids 2 teens live with thier Father and his Fiance, He is getting married at the end of this month and of course my kids are all sucked into thier wedding. I cant stand them being there with her all the time and i keep thinking how he ruined my life and how my life would be so much diffrent If I had taken a diffrent road--Instead I ended up ditched and left out in the cold.... deserted. My ex took everything from me and Now I feel actual hatred that anouther woman is kind of replacing me. and He trys to do that-Delete me out of the picture. any suggestions?
Prayers always appreciated too.

 

[mikeforjesus]

How long has it been since you divorced (coz you cant be free till you totally forgive
right?) and are u getting involved with some believers?.. maybe you can find some christian friends that can help you get over the loss and make you absorbed in them and God. I will pray for now.

 

[SweetLyn]

well Mike its been a really long while--Its not so much that I dont forgive "him" I dont think its more that I am looking back now and thinking --wow why couldnt I have that. And that myfamily life is so diffrent than I planned it, to me its kinda ruined now.

 

[Stanfi]

I'm not sure if I should be the one giving advice right now as I am having some struggles myself.

First, have you tried another med? Just because one gives you side effects does not mean the others ones well. Lexapro is supposedly the lowest side effect med out there.

You need to fight for your kids, you are their mom. Don't let your husband and his wife-to-be push you out of their lives.

You do need to get rid of the bitterness towards them for ruining your life. Why? because it just hurts you. Focusing on all those negative emotions are just going to aggravate your depression and make you miserable, not them.

I know people hurt us and let us down, and it really sucks. I've been there.

 

[If Not For Grace]

sometimes we have to loose people in our lives so God can have us meet the ones he has plans for us with.

TD Jakes has a series on "potholes" on the road to destiny, that is interesting, you might check it out.

 

[SweetLyn]

I'm not sure if I should be the one giving advice right now as I am having some struggles myself.

First, have you tried another med? Just because one gives you side effects does not mean the others ones well. Lexapro is supposedly the lowest side effect med out there.

You need to fight for your kids, you are their mom. Don't let your husband and his wife-to-be push you out of their lives.

You do need to get rid of the bitterness towards them for ruining your life. Why? because it just hurts you. Focusing on all those negative emotions are just going to aggravate your depression and make you miserable, not them.

I know people hurt us and let us down, and it really sucks. I've been there.

Hmm well the meds have been an issue I have been on almost all the anti-depressants and they either make me sweat real bad--extreme or they make me really sick in the stomach.
so I gave up. And then the line of Pshyc meds like trileptol and them make me feel like IM stoned.

I have fought for my kids a while back but then it turned out My ex just blocked me out totally. He is a mental manipulator and well at it.
I will look up that book and I will keep . thanks for the responses.