I just wanted to share this... for some feedback, encouragment, and whatever else comes along.
I'm going to try to explain this in WORDS... this is prolly going to be hard to make this as descriptive as it is in my head. but i'm gonna try- you tell me what you think
For starters, i'm 21., grew up in church- but in a family where they lived one life at church- one life outside of church. So basically a really messed up family- I didnt know what it meant to have a relationship with God, and all that stuff.
the last several months (more than 3- less than a year?)I've totaly questioned everything I belived. Mostly b/c i didnt know what i believed. I wanted to know why we worshiped this so called God, and who he was. and how do we know this whole religion thing is true. I wrote several poems- each (so i'm told) express my hurt, my hunger for truth- and my confusion admist all the search. (i'll share if wanted or needed- they dont have titles yet- but o well) I didnt understand why god created us. i thought he was selfish to create us to worship him....
I'm not a very open person. so when my best firend and boyfriend tried to talk to me- i'd get all defensive and stuff. well, the last month i guess, i've opened up more, gradually and gradually- listening to what they said, some what learning, and w/e.
Well, i still had questions, with no answers. and well, god gave it to me.
Sunday at church- we were worshiping. and the last several weeks- i made a commitment to hold on to whatever hope i had found. I belived there was a god, but i didnt understand. i really struggled with this whole relationship that i was to have. one night at my friends house, i was skimming through this book she bought, and it had some awesome pictures in there. one was putting ourselves on this throne, and god as our servent, and one was us as god's servent, and him on the throne. well that got me thinking.....
well, to focus on nothing but god durning the worship service i closed my eyes. and the pastor was coming in the middle of the song to say something- and he said something, and some where in there he prayed that god wouldn't pass us by. and that if thats yoru prayer or w/e to pray that .. well, normaly i wouldn't .but i did. i prayed. that god would reach out to me, and not pass me by.
when i did that- i had the following image. and now all i can say, I UNDERSTAND. the image:
(as desrciptive as possible)
We call God King of kings- so thats what my picture was. a king in this huge castle, over this huge land. U know how kings, ok some kings, do things in the best interest of 'his people'? well this king was telling his servents, who lived in his kingdom (castle) of course, to go outside the castle to tell everyone if they come to him, then he will give them all that they need. the servent worshiped the king, for all his power, and glory-
God is our king. he loves us. he prolly sat in the sky thinking- man i have this power - so i'm going to create this world. and these people. just like two people creating a baby- he created us- he loves us. he is teling us to just come to him- and worship him- and he'll take care of everything- our job- is to worship him, and let everyone else know about God- to witness.
well, once i got this image- my mind went crazy-
just like if we sin , it says in isaiah 43- our sins basically keep us from God. if u did something wrong - you go to jail, or in castle terms- you get put in a dungon. but if you ask for forgivness - god forgives us. and he frees us from our bondage.
if you work for the king- and go outside the castle- and then work for someone else- or disregard everything the king says-- you betray him. just like if we go to church- or read his commands (bible) and then turn around- and ignore what we were told- or ignore what we read- then we betray God. It doesn't matter where we are- or what we are doing- we are to keep up the name of a chrsitian- and keep god's word. we aren't suppose to betray him!
OUR king wants everyone to live in his castle. he's calling us to him! WHY? to live a better life! we are his servents. and because of that- our reward is a great live in a great huge castle. we are to submmit to god, and his will. HE gave us life!!!!
SO all i could do then, was sit and cry- beacuse God loves me! he gave me a life! I am to do his ministry- his calling- and obey his commandments. I mean how awesome is that?
So all i can say - IS I UNDERSTAND.
i'm sorry if my above post makes no sense. I dont know how to explain it. i just have this image in my head. but i can't put it into words!!!!!
THANKS FOR READING. SOORRY SO LONG
GOD BLESS!!! YAY
HEH
I'm going to try to explain this in WORDS... this is prolly going to be hard to make this as descriptive as it is in my head. but i'm gonna try- you tell me what you think
For starters, i'm 21., grew up in church- but in a family where they lived one life at church- one life outside of church. So basically a really messed up family- I didnt know what it meant to have a relationship with God, and all that stuff.
the last several months (more than 3- less than a year?)I've totaly questioned everything I belived. Mostly b/c i didnt know what i believed. I wanted to know why we worshiped this so called God, and who he was. and how do we know this whole religion thing is true. I wrote several poems- each (so i'm told) express my hurt, my hunger for truth- and my confusion admist all the search. (i'll share if wanted or needed- they dont have titles yet- but o well) I didnt understand why god created us. i thought he was selfish to create us to worship him....
I'm not a very open person. so when my best firend and boyfriend tried to talk to me- i'd get all defensive and stuff. well, the last month i guess, i've opened up more, gradually and gradually- listening to what they said, some what learning, and w/e.
Well, i still had questions, with no answers. and well, god gave it to me.
Sunday at church- we were worshiping. and the last several weeks- i made a commitment to hold on to whatever hope i had found. I belived there was a god, but i didnt understand. i really struggled with this whole relationship that i was to have. one night at my friends house, i was skimming through this book she bought, and it had some awesome pictures in there. one was putting ourselves on this throne, and god as our servent, and one was us as god's servent, and him on the throne. well that got me thinking.....
well, to focus on nothing but god durning the worship service i closed my eyes. and the pastor was coming in the middle of the song to say something- and he said something, and some where in there he prayed that god wouldn't pass us by. and that if thats yoru prayer or w/e to pray that .. well, normaly i wouldn't .but i did. i prayed. that god would reach out to me, and not pass me by.
when i did that- i had the following image. and now all i can say, I UNDERSTAND. the image:
(as desrciptive as possible)
We call God King of kings- so thats what my picture was. a king in this huge castle, over this huge land. U know how kings, ok some kings, do things in the best interest of 'his people'? well this king was telling his servents, who lived in his kingdom (castle) of course, to go outside the castle to tell everyone if they come to him, then he will give them all that they need. the servent worshiped the king, for all his power, and glory-
God is our king. he loves us. he prolly sat in the sky thinking- man i have this power - so i'm going to create this world. and these people. just like two people creating a baby- he created us- he loves us. he is teling us to just come to him- and worship him- and he'll take care of everything- our job- is to worship him, and let everyone else know about God- to witness.
well, once i got this image- my mind went crazy-
just like if we sin , it says in isaiah 43- our sins basically keep us from God. if u did something wrong - you go to jail, or in castle terms- you get put in a dungon. but if you ask for forgivness - god forgives us. and he frees us from our bondage.
if you work for the king- and go outside the castle- and then work for someone else- or disregard everything the king says-- you betray him. just like if we go to church- or read his commands (bible) and then turn around- and ignore what we were told- or ignore what we read- then we betray God. It doesn't matter where we are- or what we are doing- we are to keep up the name of a chrsitian- and keep god's word. we aren't suppose to betray him!
OUR king wants everyone to live in his castle. he's calling us to him! WHY? to live a better life! we are his servents. and because of that- our reward is a great live in a great huge castle. we are to submmit to god, and his will. HE gave us life!!!!
SO all i could do then, was sit and cry- beacuse God loves me! he gave me a life! I am to do his ministry- his calling- and obey his commandments. I mean how awesome is that?
So all i can say - IS I UNDERSTAND.
i'm sorry if my above post makes no sense. I dont know how to explain it. i just have this image in my head. but i can't put it into words!!!!!
THANKS FOR READING. SOORRY SO LONG
GOD BLESS!!! YAY
HEH
