Just wanted to say

[blessedmomof5]

I am suffering so much...... i hate this..i am getting these weird feelings i am not going to be around much longer, i am having chest pains all the time and now i ate, and hate myself even more......my life as a 42 yr old women is not what i would have wanted it to be had i known......wish i could have changed it all....

 

[Music4Hym777]

Thats too bad Denise....you will be in my prayers

 

[PureGrace]

Oh Denise, Im so sorry to hear that you are struggling so much. You are such a special woman, and an huge part of the community here in the ED forums. Never forget that everyone in this forum is here for you. Please never hesitate to PM me if you need anything. Dont let me age fool you...I have quite a bit to share.


Lord, I lift up Denise to you in her time of trial. I pray that you would bring her the peace and healing that could only come from You. Jesus, show her the way to full recovery. Work a miracle in her precious life. We love her so much, and can't even begin to imagine how much love you must posess for her. Show it to her Lord. Please hold her in your loving arms tonight, and as she struggles. Thank you for being here for us, Lord. Its in your son's name I pray, Amen.

-Kate

 

[madison1101]

Denice,
I totally understand your feelings of despair, as I have had them many times in the past. Faith is such a challenge when we struggle with eating disorders, or any other addictive behavior. It takes faith to trust God that our emotions will not send us over the edge. Giving up the eating disordered behavior means not numbing the painful emotions. Yet, we are miserable when we use our eating disordered behaviors.

Pray for the strength to trust the Lord for healing. He has promised He would heal and comfort us. Please pray for the willingness to trust Him for this in you.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[myquestions]

i can't say much, but hugs. it's never too late for anything. dont' give up pls

 

[pockleberry]

Iv'e only known you for a little bit but I already know that you're an amazing person I'll be praying for things to be easier for you.

 

[bumblebee62331]

I am suffering so much...... i hate this..i am getting these weird feelings i am not going to be around much longer, i am having chest pains all the time and now i ate, and hate myself even more......my life as a 42 yr old women is not what i would have wanted it to be had i known......wish i could have changed it all....

Denise

I just was browsing through the ED forum and saw this thread.

My heart really goes out to you. You are a lovely lovely person, you have been a wonderful friend to me since I joined here. Honestly. I am so sorry that you are struggling. I cannot imagine the hell you have been through - and are currently going through. I wish I could take it away from you. You deserve so much more.

I know you are not doing well at the moment and I am scared for you. I truly hope that you know where you are at the moment is not healthy and is very dangerous. Please please please try to get up to a heathier weight so that I can breathe easier! I have no right to ask you to do this for me, but I can be rude enough to ask you to do it for your husband, your children - and yourself.

Please, you don't have to go much, but just to something that's more stable. I don't mean to sound patronising and I really am sorry if I do, but I am just sooo worried about you! Honestly. I don't want to lose you, in the short time I've known you, you have had such a positive effect on my life.

Please take care of yourself Denise, I mean it. You are so very special.

 

[blessedmomof5]

Thank you!!!

 

[~Nikki~]

I am worried too!!!

I don't know what to say...except that I will

 

[blessedmomof5]

maybe...now this is today, but maybe after Christmas i will go away again, this time for longer..... i know i need the help.... it's almost like lets see how far i can go, maybe i have gone far enough, is it ever far enough?

 

[~Nikki~]

maybe...now this is today, but maybe after Christmas i will go away again, this time for longer..... i know i need the help.... it's almost like lets see how far i can go, maybe i have gone far enough, is it ever far enough?

I don't think it is ever far enough...because the problem is fuelled by what's going on inside.

For me, my ED was fuelled by bitterness, unforgiveness, anger, hatred, absolute rage, and the fact that I hated myself.

And no amount of weight loss changed these feelings...though I kept telling myself it'd be alright if I just lost a few pounds more....then I'd be happy. It never happened because changing the outside of one's body NEVER changes the inside.

Since I've been working on forgiving everyone for real or perceived hurts, letting go of anger and bitterness, my mindset has changed...and I'm getting there...getting gradually back to normal.

It's bitterness that eats people up and wrecks their lives...and the Bible says that bitterness defiles us...

Anyway, I'm sure you know all this, just wanted to give you a few hugs!


btw, thanks for the comment and the reps...I'm going to send you a pm when I get a few minutes...

 

[madison1101]

I don't think it is ever far enough...because the problem is fuelled by what's going on inside.

For me, my ED was fuelled by bitterness, unforgiveness, anger, hatred, absolute rage, and the fact that I hated myself.

And no amount of weight loss changed these feelings...though I kept telling myself it'd be alright if I just lost a few pounds more....then I'd be happy. It never happened because changing the outside of one's body NEVER changes the inside.

Since I've been working on forgiving everyone for real or perceived hurts, letting go of anger and bitterness, my mindset has changed...and I'm getting there...getting gradually back to normal.

It's bitterness that eats people up and wrecks their lives...and the Bible says that bitterness defiles us...

Anyway, I'm sure you know all this, just wanted to give you a few hugs!


btw, thanks for the comment and the reps...I'm going to send you a pm when I get a few minutes...

I have a lot of bitterness about my divorce. I am struggling to deal with it as it is interfering with my recovery and I am trying to get it together as I am in treatment at this time.

How do I get rid of it? What am I supposed to be doing to not have it anymore/

Trish

 

[~Nikki~]

I have a lot of bitterness about my divorce. I am struggling to deal with it as it is interfering with my recovery and I am trying to get it together as I am in treatment at this time.

How do I get rid of it? What am I supposed to be doing to not have it anymore/

Trish

Yikes!!! I don't know!

I only know that for me I make the choice to forgive and not dwell on the hurts, and when I'm tempted to think bad things, I do what it says in Philippians which is to think about whatever is true, praiseworthy, just, good, excellent...

You know, apparently divorce is as equally traumatic as the death of a loved one though I would say it could be worse than that...and Trish I don't know what to say to ease your pain...I've never been in your situation...

I think for me I had to get to the point where I was desparate enough, and said "ok God, you're in control...I will do anything you tell me to do...I will obey you in everything from now on...I will seek to conform my will to your Word, and not twist scriptures to fit my situation, but to change my mind and situation so they fit the scriptures...what do You want of me?"

Then bit by bit He showed me where I was holding on to bitterness, showed me that I had to make the choice to forgive and not dwell on those bad thoughts, and feelings of betrayal and hurt...

I'll PM you as I don't want to carry on posting this publicly...

 

[blessedmomof5]

all hyperthyical(sp)...how long can one stay in cold water before hyperthermeria sets in? how long does a bottle of liquid codiene last?

 

[madison1101]

I don't know the answer to either question. I do know that drinking the bottle of liquid codeine is not a good idea. Neither is sitting in the tub of cold water.

I suggest you contact a medical professional with both of these questions. See what that person has to say.

 

[bumblebee62331]

all hyperthyical(sp)...how long can one stay in cold water before hyperthermeria sets in? how long does a bottle of liquid codiene last?

What are your plans?

 

[blessedmomof5]

no plans just questions thats all.....