Some of you may know, that a few days ago two close friends of mine were killed in a car wreck. They were 16, and 17. It wasn't even their fault. Some guy, fell asleep going around a bend, crossed the double lines, and hit them head on. They served out of the way into the guardrail, but at the wrong angle, and the guy still hit them. The car was soo small. Both cars were only going 55, but it was enough to crush them instantly in the car. The small car was engulfed in flames, and everything in it burned away. The mirrors and the steel in the car is still, melted to the cement of the scene. The pastor (who hit them) died a few days later at the hospital. Two close friends of mine... They both had a wonderful sense of humor. One of them wanted to be a pastor, the other once told me, "Me and God are tight!" Crosing his middle and index finger together, while smiling. Two great kids. They had soo many firneds and impacted soo many lived. The funeral was soo full, that people had to sit outside of the main area, in the halls, and everywhere. People were standing. The had brought speakers outside in the halls so we could hear the speakers. All of my 'girlfriends' from school were really good friends with these two kids too. It broke my heart sooo much to see them in pain. The day after it happened, there was a picture of them in the front page of the major newspaper around here, and they were sobbing. I wanted to cry. I was with them the whole time though. Always with them. They told me that I've helped them soo much through this, and that they always want me around. Such a tradegy brought us all sooo close. Somehow I feel that those two kids are glad that they have brought us all together like this. The saddness has sorta passed I guess. Now it's all about remembering them. All about remembering.
The day after the tradegy, my grandma also died. She was 85. I miss her so much. But she died along time ago in reality. She had alzheimers. Bad. And I'm relieved in away shes gone, but I wish she would have remembered who I was the last few months of her life. She loved me alot though. I know it. She would always take be to Taco Bell before she had gotton alzheimers. It was both of our favorite place. She was from the south, so she made TERRIFIC southern food. Her beans, cobbler, potatoes, gravy, even her coffee was special. She was saved. Southern Baptist she was. But, I can't complain that shes gone. Shes not gone, in reality we all are gone, she's the only one actualy home. AND she lived a full life. 85!!! 85 years old. Two close frinds of mine who just died were only 16, 17. But, I will see them all again. There's this song that has helped me though. Maybe some of you might know it. It's called Gone Away by The Offspring.
Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal it's so unfair
And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels
Yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away
Leaving flowers on your grave
Show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could trade
I would
And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings
Yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away
I just needed to vent for a bit. God Bless you all. I'm only 16, but I already have learned never to take life for granted. No one is garunteed a certain amount of days. I'm gonna take life for everything now. I love my friends and family soo much more than I did, just because I know that tomorrow, some of them might not be there.
The day after the tradegy, my grandma also died. She was 85. I miss her so much. But she died along time ago in reality. She had alzheimers. Bad. And I'm relieved in away shes gone, but I wish she would have remembered who I was the last few months of her life. She loved me alot though. I know it. She would always take be to Taco Bell before she had gotton alzheimers. It was both of our favorite place. She was from the south, so she made TERRIFIC southern food. Her beans, cobbler, potatoes, gravy, even her coffee was special. She was saved. Southern Baptist she was. But, I can't complain that shes gone. Shes not gone, in reality we all are gone, she's the only one actualy home. AND she lived a full life. 85!!! 85 years old. Two close frinds of mine who just died were only 16, 17. But, I will see them all again. There's this song that has helped me though. Maybe some of you might know it. It's called Gone Away by The Offspring.
Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal it's so unfair
And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels
Yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away
Leaving flowers on your grave
Show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could trade
I would
And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings
Yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away
I just needed to vent for a bit. God Bless you all. I'm only 16, but I already have learned never to take life for granted. No one is garunteed a certain amount of days. I'm gonna take life for everything now. I love my friends and family soo much more than I did, just because I know that tomorrow, some of them might not be there.
