Just Need Prayers.

[catboydale]

For about a year, I strayed off the path after I fell in love with another man my age. We are both struggling Christians, saved by the blood of Christ, but are in need of help: we want to be free from our homosexuality. God helped us both by making sure that we were still good friends after we had ended our unhealthy relationship, and now we are both on the path to getting right with god like we once were. Sometimes I feel that Satan, the ultimate deceiver, is using my own emotions to blind sight me, and he was winning for what felt like the longest time.
I know god will not do it all for me, I have to want this, and I have to put forth the effort. I understand it, and I am planning on doing my best; but sometimes, I don't have the willpower to keep from Homosexual temptations, especially since another man has entered my life who is trying to keep me in sin. I want to give in because this man is sweet and kind to me but it is no longer what I want for myself. I need prayers, and this weight lifted on my chest so I can be right with god and myself and be a better christian for those I witness to and also for my friend who is struggling too.

It has always been my dream too to be married and maybe have a family.

Please keep us in your prayers. God knows our names.

 

[Criada]

I am sorry you are in this position. It is a very hard battle to fight, but it is possible to avoid doing what you know to be wrong.
You say you dream of a family and marriage, and that is good, and perhaps something to aim for.
But, unless you have totally overcome your desires and are actually attracted to a woman, please don't go into a marriage in the hope that it will work. It doesn't, and it can cause a huge amount of hurt to all involved.

Thinking of you, and hoping that you find peace.

 

[Isaiah54]

Hello...You have to distance yourself from temptation - and as hard as it is, from people who are yealding to the temptation you are trying to resist - or in time you will yeald also. And don't decieve yourself into thinking "I'm hanging out with this person so that I can minister to him." You're not in a place to do that yet. When you overcome in this area, then you will be equiped to show someone else the way out. Remember God loves you, and He will never leave you or turn his back on you, so as long as you stick with it and don't get frustrated and give up, I believe you'll have the victory. God Bless.

 

[RuthD]

You are doing so well! God forgives so you are good in his eyes. I think that maybe you need to stop being so hard on yourself. You are a worthy person and a creation of God. I am praying for you.

 

[spazlegs]

Hey we had a pastor who was secretly doing the meet with guys thing even though he was married and had a gorgeous wife. And he had kids.

He got saved and then went through some training in dealing with sexual addictions.

He invited me and some other guys to do a study on sexual addictions and I wasn't addicted then, and he was trying to get me to say I was. He meant well, but it wasn't working for me, so I left. Later I did get addicted to reading stories about sex as a way to deal with depression.

He had to stop cold turkey. He had to rebuild his relationship with his wife. But he was honest and told us that he still had problems with his thought life. And he still saw guys in his neighborhood stretching and getting ready to run and those pathways in his mind were still there and he still had to go to God for help.

You are doing well, continue to follow our Lord, Jesus Christ. And when you mess up, confess and restart. The addiction does become easier to deal with as time goes on.

 

[catboydale]

So far so good. Thanks everyone.