Just have to write

[Nutella]

I'm watching a movie called "Deliver Us From Evil" and my thoughts are going around again. Don't those people know what they are doing? Don't they know that they are destroying a life? Do they just think that an I"M SORRY will make up everything?!

For many, many years I thought of myself as a sicko or a psycho. I thought that I just wasn't normal. The way I was acting in certain situations wasn't normal. Drug and alcohol abuse, violence against others and myself, my self-esteem, my education and fear of school. Everything. I'm always wondering why I said something that I said. My life has been a mess.

Now I'm learning to understand that I'm not a sicko nor a psycho. I know that I'm not. Yes, the life I went through makes me different than a lot of people, but I'm normal. I know that I can work on myself but it will take time.

Sometimes I wonder how a child or an adult feels. I wonder how it feels like having good memories of the childhood not have went through abuse and seen those evil things that I've seen. It's probably great........I wish those things wouldn't have happened. On the other hand I know that I will be able to help other with that what I have experienced and that God will use me in a great way.

I just needed to get this off my heart. Thanks for reading.

 

[restore]

yea, those horrible memory someday will become part of the blessings to other people.
and we live not only for ourselves , right?

God will bless us a great heart. We desire to be more like Him.

 

[ForAMomentIWillFly]

Sometimes God makes you trudge through a dire ravine just to build a bridge to other so they don't have to go through that same valley alone.

You cannot save them from what they've experienced, but you can save them from dying at the bottom.