about the future. My OCD is really manageable right now, so I haven't around much, but I think about everyone here every day, and pray for you all.
In Bible study on Wednesday we were discussing 1 John 2 starting at vs. 18, which discusses the Antichrist and several other antichrists that have already come, and are already here, and will come. This of course got me thinking about the future and I was reminded of a passage in Revelation. Now in the past, Revelation was something I avoided with OCD because it just made me anxious.
As we struggle with the pain of OCD, and it is so very painful, probably the worst pain I have felt and experienced in life thus far, what we can always hold on to is hope. There were times during OCD that I honestly wished I was dead, not because I really wanted to die but because the suffering is so intense and horrible that all you want is relief from it. So it gives me hope to think of some day when we won't have to suffer from this anymore. There will be no such thing as OCD in heaven. We won't even remember our pain. The thought of Jesus wiping away our tears of pain is incredible. For all the tears we have shed over OCD (and I've shed a lot!!), they will be wiped away when He comes again.
Of course during my intense OCD times just thinking of heaven made me anxious (my fears were always that I wasn't saved or didn't believe).
God is bigger than OCD, this we know. Bigger than fear. Bigger than anxiety. Bigger than doubt.
Now I don't know when Jesus will return, just like the rest of you, but to just hold on this hope has given me a bit of a perspective when dealing with OCD. I really look forward to that day, especially when we can all meet in heaven and not just be strangers on an OCD support forum anymore.
In Bible study on Wednesday we were discussing 1 John 2 starting at vs. 18, which discusses the Antichrist and several other antichrists that have already come, and are already here, and will come. This of course got me thinking about the future and I was reminded of a passage in Revelation. Now in the past, Revelation was something I avoided with OCD because it just made me anxious.
As we struggle with the pain of OCD, and it is so very painful, probably the worst pain I have felt and experienced in life thus far, what we can always hold on to is hope. There were times during OCD that I honestly wished I was dead, not because I really wanted to die but because the suffering is so intense and horrible that all you want is relief from it. So it gives me hope to think of some day when we won't have to suffer from this anymore. There will be no such thing as OCD in heaven. We won't even remember our pain. The thought of Jesus wiping away our tears of pain is incredible. For all the tears we have shed over OCD (and I've shed a lot!!), they will be wiped away when He comes again.
Of course during my intense OCD times just thinking of heaven made me anxious (my fears were always that I wasn't saved or didn't believe).
God is bigger than OCD, this we know. Bigger than fear. Bigger than anxiety. Bigger than doubt.
Now I don't know when Jesus will return, just like the rest of you, but to just hold on this hope has given me a bit of a perspective when dealing with OCD. I really look forward to that day, especially when we can all meet in heaven and not just be strangers on an OCD support forum anymore.
