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I've been speaking with as many people as I can about this and I feel like perhaps somewhere, in someone, God will lead me and ease my own personal strife. I want to say first, I love Christianity, I love Christ, I love everything about this so far, I'm so excited to learn more but there is one lingering personal issue that I need to shake. As I prepare myself mentally and spiritually for baptism I am experiencing some very deep feelings of betrayal. As a Jew, I feel as though I am turning my back on my people, all those rebbe who guided me as a teen struggling with adolescence, depression, addiction and OCD, all those blessed people who could and should have left me for dead but didn't. My family, my home, and I'm having trouble shaking this. I pray, I analyze, I think. Tbh as I write this I'm almost in tears. I just don't know. My head tells me, listen to your priest and scholars, they have told you as you grow closer to God, the more your metal will be tested. Could that be true? Am I struggling with this for a reason? How can I reconcile my Jewish identity with my new found faith? Perhaps this is a lesson to be loyal to God not 'the tribe'? Please help me, any input would be awesome.
Seeing as the faith originated from my homeland and came out of Judaism, surely there is perhaps something written about this? Where in the gospels specifically can I read about the conversions of Jews specifically, what was said and so on?
Seeing as the faith originated from my homeland and came out of Judaism, surely there is perhaps something written about this? Where in the gospels specifically can I read about the conversions of Jews specifically, what was said and so on?
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