its so hard...

[thisismyutopia]

So, this summer really hasnt been the best. It started with one of the teachers at my school passing away. I was really upset but I was okay after a few weeks.

On August 9, 3 soldiers from around where I live died in Iraq. One of them was the son of my dads friend, his name was Nate. Our families are kind of close because my dad and Nates are both police officers. And its just been so hard. Like it seems unreal. He was only 19, and the night he was killed he talked to his parents. I just dont understand. Today it hit especially hard, starting this morning, when I picked out the outfit I wanted to wear to school and realized thats what I wore to his funeral. Then I saw his brother in school everytime I turned around. And its so hard seeing him, because they look so much alike that for a minute I forget. Tonight at the school football game we had a tribute for him. Because Im in the marching band, I participated. It was really nice but people in band didnt take it seriously and it just made it worse because they didnt seem to realize that today was the one month anniversary.

Before this summer Ive never really lost anyone and it was just such a shock. I dont know what to do...

 

[Chloe Williams]

I am so sorry all this stuff is happening to you! I will say a prayer for you. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me anytime!

 

[Alive again]

Praying for you! Grief is a process. I am sorry for your loss, esp that others at school did not respect his memorial. Do not despair, this young man touched your life and there are many who do understand. Especially God, if you can find no one else to talk to or to listen to you, God is there. Crawl into His lap and let the Holy Spirit comfort you. Give it all the time it takes, and do not be concerned if others do not know how to help. You will learn and grow and be changed by this experience.

 

[luv4godremains]

I'm praying, I'm really sorry

 

[Wildwood]

You're experiencing grief. It can seem unbearable. But God is there to comfort you. And, it's a comfort to know that someday we will be reunited with our loved ones who die before us.

It helps to work through the grief if you can express your feelings--talk about it (with God or others) and cry about it.

When Jesus learned that his cousin, John, had been murdered, he went off by himself.

Joseph mourned the death of his father (Jacob) by openly and intensely expressing his grief for seven days (Gen. 50).

C.S. Lewis expressed his grief in losing his wife in a book titled "A Grief Observed."

I'm praying that God will comfort and encourage you.