Its over

[HoneyComb Son]

hey there..i have a thread started..but i need to talk about this..as this is really bugging me..and has caused me to do many bad things..

please dont take this lightily..as it is real...and for me..has caused me alot of pain

what if God told you you would never marry? is there anybody out there like me?..i know for a fact..that God is telling me i will never marry in this life..it isnt the enemy.it is God..i know He wants the best for me..so maybe for others to hear this..they will not think it is from God..but i know it is..i dont want to believe it though..but it is..

i feel i cant handle this..in all honesty..i feel like turning my back on God and never looking back.as i have said in my other posts..i need help..but i dont know where to go around where i live..

i feel hopeless..there arent words right now that i can honesty share or speak..here as they are just against God.but i can tell you..it isnt good..i have just such hatred against Him..it is even hard for me to be honest with God Himself..as i dont care anymore..about God..other people or myself..

i need to say this..but it is true..i hate love..more then anything..i am not lying

i know i am selfish and its my own sin and my pride.i just dont care anymore..about being honest or living a holy life...

what worries me is that i might go all the way with what i am affraid of doing..not suicide as you might think.another thing..which i cannot say right now..

i had to say this..pray for God's forgiveness to be on me..as right now.i dont even want to try to get better and move on with God..i am trying to say something honest..but if i did..it would be bad.as it is just not wanting to be with God and being a christian anymore


please is there anybody else.there is so much more

i have to say this though..even though this may sound like i am blaming God..i know He is good..and loves me..and wants the best for me.i just find it hard to believe with this..God bless

 

[HoneyComb Son]

i wish i could open up and be honest.but that is so hard to do...

 

[Johnnz]

If what you heard really was God you would not be feeling so negative about it.

I suspect there are other issues you are facing in your life that form the background to this issue.

John
NZ

 

[JJ_79]

I feel what you are going through HoneyComb Son... I to feel god wants me to be alone... I never ever really had a true gf. Hell i am 27 now.. A lot of it has to do with my height... Hard to attract women when you are 5'2...

I want love badly but i don't think it is for me.. I feel i am being punished from a previous life... Well i could go into more detail but i am just not in the mood right now.. Just now i relate to what you are going thru..

 

[UnitynLove]

I feel what you are going through HoneyComb Son... I to feel god wants me to be alone... I never ever really had a true gf. Hell i am 27 now.. A lot of it has to do with my height... Hard to attract women when you are 5'2...

I want love badly but i don't think it is for me.. I feel i am being punished from a previous life... Well i could go into more detail but i am just not in the mood right now.. Just now i relate to what you are going thru..

JJ this is a lie from the enemy. You are not meant to be alone you are meant to be with someone. It is not about the way you look, but the way you feel about yourself. And since you are God's child, the light of God, God's shining star, you should have all the confidence in the world. Trust in God, and ask him to send you a woman for you, he will deliever because he is faithful. Amen.

 

[Onlythingavailable]

I came across this while I was searching for something in the Bible. 1 Timothy 4:1-3:

1 Now the Spirit speaketh expressly, that in the latter times some shall depart from the faith, giving heed to seducing spirits, and doctrines of devils;
2 Speaking lies in hypocrisy; having their conscience seared with a hot iron;
3 Forbidding to marry, and commanding to abstain from meats, which God hath created to be received with thanksgiving of them which believe and know the truth.

Now, I know that it's also mentioned in the Bible that some are called to celibacy, but I just thought of you when I read this passage, so I thought I'd post it.

You say you hate love, but yet you get this upset when you hear you won't ever marry? God isn't cruel. As you said yourself, if you indeed won't marry, it's for your best. He will fill the void with something more important, something more meaningful than marriage.

 

[If Not For Grace]

Even if you do not marry, it is not to say you will not love or be loved. I never married two of the greatest loves in my life.

As you get older you will learn that ALL people are seasonal in your life. Everyone will pass (leave) sooner or later--or you will.

Cheer up. God's still in control.

 

[Anti Existance]

God doesn't decide for you to get married or not, you have free will and can do whateveror be with whomever you want as long as its within the spiritual laws of God.

 

[Jamie09]

whatever you have concluded and do not find peace, the message is not from God.

God's message or guidance to help you make decisions always makes you feel at peace.

God Bless You Always

 

[marshgreencohen]

accept it?God's love is greater than anyone else's

 

[UnitynLove]

Satan is a liar! He never rejects you whatever you do he already knew what you would so he gave his blood for you. If you never woulud sin again then their would be no need for Jesus. Jesus= Love = Grace = Forgivness. Never reject yourself. Meditate on that scripture that says : "There is no condemnation to those that are in Christ Jesus!" God never condemns you, so don't do it to yourself. Father God in Jesus name I pray that your son Honeycomb be set friend from the enemies hands that he overcomes every problem through your word and through you love. Let him rest upon in trust in it and believe in it. You Love him with a ever lasting and you will NEVER rejct him . Help him to see your love for him my Father. In your Son Jesus's name, Amen.

 

[HoneyComb Son]

Thank you all for your replies..I am tuggling along.i feel better..but i honestly dont know what is up..spiritual..it feels that God's power is away from me..He is here..but He seems not to be..

if you will continue to pray for truth and change..God bless