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Last Thursday my special someone told me that she no longer liked me. I met her in 8th grade and we told each other that we liked the other near the end of that year. And just this this Thursday (2 years later) she said that she doesn't really feel like she likes me anymore. She didn't give a solid reason as to why she doesn't anymore, so I guess that's part of the reason why I'm confused. I'm 16 and so is she, and I get that at this age people's perception and needs and wants change over time, and even more so at this point in life. I think the reason is because this year we started to become very close to one another, we would talk for hours on end, even into the wee hours of the morning (even during finals week). The problem I believe spawned at school, where I started hanging out with her and her group of friends. I believe I got way too close for comfort for her, and now looking back, for me too. I would sit closely to her or put my arm around her and my guess is that she started feeling awkward especially since this all happened around her best friends. I don't know what's wrong with my thick skull but I never registered it until now. She asked me politely to keep our space at school but when we're outside of school hugging and hand holding is ok. Looking back on it after she told me that I don't think I gave her much more room at all, which is completely stupid on my part. 
Now that she's taking a break from me that I realize that it maybe close to too late to redeem myself in her eyes, although I wish nothing more than that. On Thursday I told her that I still really like her for everything she is and nothing would make me happier than to have her back and she slyly responded "maybe 
". I've been constantly praying about it, because I really do love her for who she is and she is everything I ever wanted, better than anything I ever could have hoped for. Just something about her personality just draws me ever closer to her.
Here comes a twist in the plot. Just yesterday I asked to hang out with her and she seemed more than happy to do so. We live rather close to one another and to get to where we were going to hang out I could take a route that would pass by her house and pick her up. As I was nearing her house her dad came home from work, and I think that's the last thing she wanted. I just kept walking past her house and waited for her at the park where we were going to hang out. A couple minutes later she came and we sat there and talked and talked and talked and laughed like old times, and never once was Thursday mentioned. In fact, it felt like nothing had happened on Thursday at all. I don't know why but I had the nerve to try to hold her hand. She kept pulling away to fix her hair (just a natural habit, not a self image worrying gesture) either because she felt it was awkward or because there were other people at the park also from our school. I'm not sure which, because after she fixed her hair she would return her hand to a place where I could easily hold it again. After the hang out we both ate dinner and later that night online I asked her if her father asked her anything about me and she said no, but she sounded very annoyed. She asked me why I walked that route instead of the usual way I go that wouldn't pass by her house. I told her I didn't expect her father to come home, and that was possibly the worst timing ever, and I was saying it jokingly. But she blew it off sounding rather annoyed. Later she was fine again, and we chatted and she told me how she went out driving that day and nearly clipped a car and it was all fine and dandy again.
I feel like the major reason she wanted a break was because I didn't give her room at school, and it probably annoyed her and it built up over time. She said I was treating her too much like a girlfriend, but that's not what either of us want. I know there are some of you on here that feel like it's stupid and that if we like each other we should just be "official" and go on "dates" but I think otherwise. Why do you have to be "official" in order to have feelings for one another? Why do you have to go on dates when you can just hang out? At any rate, I believe the main reason behind her saying that was because of how I treated her at school, and I feel like I really want a second chance to prove to her I can keep my distance (sorry, I'm a stupid nut, it takes a couple times to get it through my skull). I guess now all I can do is pray, pray, pray.
I'm not exactly sure what I'm asking for on this thread, maybe some advice you guys could impart on a young grasshopper? Perhaps pray for me? Thanks guys, and I'll keep y'all posted.
Now that she's taking a break from me that I realize that it maybe close to too late to redeem myself in her eyes, although I wish nothing more than that. On Thursday I told her that I still really like her for everything she is and nothing would make me happier than to have her back and she slyly responded "maybe ". I've been constantly praying about it, because I really do love her for who she is and she is everything I ever wanted, better than anything I ever could have hoped for. Just something about her personality just draws me ever closer to her. Here comes a twist in the plot. Just yesterday I asked to hang out with her and she seemed more than happy to do so. We live rather close to one another and to get to where we were going to hang out I could take a route that would pass by her house and pick her up. As I was nearing her house her dad came home from work, and I think that's the last thing she wanted. I just kept walking past her house and waited for her at the park where we were going to hang out. A couple minutes later she came and we sat there and talked and talked and talked and laughed like old times, and never once was Thursday mentioned. In fact, it felt like nothing had happened on Thursday at all. I don't know why but I had the nerve to try to hold her hand. She kept pulling away to fix her hair (just a natural habit, not a self image worrying gesture) either because she felt it was awkward or because there were other people at the park also from our school. I'm not sure which, because after she fixed her hair she would return her hand to a place where I could easily hold it again. After the hang out we both ate dinner and later that night online I asked her if her father asked her anything about me and she said no, but she sounded very annoyed. She asked me why I walked that route instead of the usual way I go that wouldn't pass by her house. I told her I didn't expect her father to come home, and that was possibly the worst timing ever, and I was saying it jokingly. But she blew it off sounding rather annoyed. Later she was fine again, and we chatted and she told me how she went out driving that day and nearly clipped a car and it was all fine and dandy again.
I feel like the major reason she wanted a break was because I didn't give her room at school, and it probably annoyed her and it built up over time. She said I was treating her too much like a girlfriend, but that's not what either of us want. I know there are some of you on here that feel like it's stupid and that if we like each other we should just be "official" and go on "dates" but I think otherwise. Why do you have to be "official" in order to have feelings for one another? Why do you have to go on dates when you can just hang out? At any rate, I believe the main reason behind her saying that was because of how I treated her at school, and I feel like I really want a second chance to prove to her I can keep my distance (sorry, I'm a stupid nut, it takes a couple times to get it through my skull). I guess now all I can do is pray, pray, pray.
I'm not exactly sure what I'm asking for on this thread, maybe some advice you guys could impart on a young grasshopper? Perhaps pray for me? Thanks guys, and I'll keep y'all posted.
