It's so not easy to acually wait for the right guy. I had/still have a crush on this guy, who is a christian, but he has been walking away from god for years. And whenever someone says something he doesn't like, he get's upset with that person. My old youth paster said something to him, I don't know what, but he is now upset with the youth paster. And I don't understand it, because my old youth paster was an awsome guy, him and his wife. They are very nice people. But This guy I like get's so offended when someone says something against what he is doing.
It was last year, I have known this guy for about three, four years, and slowly my cursh on him has grown. So last year I finally told him how I felt, when he was 'free' because before. I sat back, and I wasn't really looking, I was 16 and even though having a boyfriend would be nice, I wasn't ready for one. So I waited, and I don't just fix on one guy. I try and keep myself open, but after a while it began to be...when ever my crush would come over to the house, or I would see him. It felt like my heart would skip a beat, or i'd get butterflies in my stomach. But around him I always feel safe, and relaxed. Which is a big deal for me because I tence up when i'm around any guy. I get so tence that I go and hide in my room, or go for a walk, anything to get away from it. But not this one guy. So because of this, I started liking him more.
After I told him how I felt, he talked to me. And told me he didn't think he was "boyfriend matirial" He wanted time to find out who he was. And what God wanted to do with him before he tied himself down to another girlfriend. He had just broken up a few days ago with his girlfiriend that he's had for a few years. And I had over heard conversations between my brother and him. And he would say that there wern't many girls out there any more. Or that his ex was his only choise. Because no one was free, or intrested. So I figuared, maybe if he knows i'm free and intrested...it will help. But, he turned me down, as nicely as pocible and I accepted it.
But then, a week later he's dating his ex again. And they're sleeping togeather. Few months later, they brake up again. And she's in a car crash. He was doing better, he was getting close to god again...and now, they're dating again, and he brought her over to the apartment where me and my family live...and he knows no one can stand her, but we're nice to her because it's the christian thing to do. But, it hurts so much, to be turned down and be told that "he's not ready for a girlfriend" and then see him with his ex.
It was last year, I have known this guy for about three, four years, and slowly my cursh on him has grown. So last year I finally told him how I felt, when he was 'free' because before. I sat back, and I wasn't really looking, I was 16 and even though having a boyfriend would be nice, I wasn't ready for one. So I waited, and I don't just fix on one guy. I try and keep myself open, but after a while it began to be...when ever my crush would come over to the house, or I would see him. It felt like my heart would skip a beat, or i'd get butterflies in my stomach. But around him I always feel safe, and relaxed. Which is a big deal for me because I tence up when i'm around any guy. I get so tence that I go and hide in my room, or go for a walk, anything to get away from it. But not this one guy. So because of this, I started liking him more.
After I told him how I felt, he talked to me. And told me he didn't think he was "boyfriend matirial" He wanted time to find out who he was. And what God wanted to do with him before he tied himself down to another girlfriend. He had just broken up a few days ago with his girlfiriend that he's had for a few years. And I had over heard conversations between my brother and him. And he would say that there wern't many girls out there any more. Or that his ex was his only choise. Because no one was free, or intrested. So I figuared, maybe if he knows i'm free and intrested...it will help. But, he turned me down, as nicely as pocible and I accepted it.
But then, a week later he's dating his ex again. And they're sleeping togeather. Few months later, they brake up again. And she's in a car crash. He was doing better, he was getting close to god again...and now, they're dating again, and he brought her over to the apartment where me and my family live...and he knows no one can stand her, but we're nice to her because it's the christian thing to do. But, it hurts so much, to be turned down and be told that "he's not ready for a girlfriend" and then see him with his ex.
