brooke
well like some others have said, and i can only second...
you are not the only person who feels this way. and it doesnt mean your diffrent, its something all true christians go through.
i remember a time in my life, when prayer was the absolutely last thing i wanted to do, i couldnt bear to stop doing what i was doing and go pray... and i went week on week without prayer.
becuase i beleive the devil was attacking that part of my life, becuase if he can cut off our secret place with God he can seperate us from the hand of God and his protection and guidance in our lives, and destroy us. destroy us like sifting wheat and letting the wind carry away the chaff, as Jesus said.
it was the flesh that didnt want to pray, thats all it was. but i had to learn the hardway that i have no choice but to pray, even if it isnt pleasurable.
be assured this season will pass, but you have to be faithful even when you dont get anything back, you must pray.
just know there are dark times in our christian lives, in the book of isaiah 50 the bible says that those saints who serve the Lord, are faithful to the Lord YET WALK IN DARKNESS, should stay on there God and trust in the name of the Lord.
sometimes you have to trust in his name, or that is what you know about him, when he isnt talking.
the bible says in psalm 90 that we should not fear the terror by night.
God can keep you in those times when it seems its night time for you, becuase its so dark and without joy.
you have to bind prayer to yourself like a runner straps his shoes on for a race or a soilder straps his boots on, to make sure they dont fall off. becuase without prayer you wont make it.
but pleasure in prayer? it always comes if you wait and TARRY on the Lord.
i think you have a passion for prayer, or this wouldnt be an issue for you.
but the pleasure in it?
there are times when its not pleasurable.
but you have to do it anyway, becuase its like your working out in the gym.
it hurts, it aint fun, and theres alot of resistance, but its making you stronger, and without that pain and resistance, theres no growth.
but know that this wont last forever, youll joy will break forth as the morning if you will be faithful in the midst of your dark valley.
your miracle is coming, if youll be faithful.
be not weary in well doing for in due season we will reap, if we faint not.
what are you praying about?
if you are bored in prayer, its probly becuase your praying over things that dont concern you.
maybe your praying for the wrong things, or maybe you dont care for what you need to be praying for.
id look deep in my heart, what are the issues of your life? whats really going on in your life? what are the problems? what means alot to you?
if you cant think of any problems, i know this.
you are either in one, or your walking toward one.
but begin to pray over the REAL issues in your life, and i bet youd find a motivation.
you arent supposed to just be saying
"give us this day our daily bread..."
but rather
"Lord Jesus...help me...i dont know if can i do THIS..."
and you know what YOUR THIS is, right? is the problem or issue in YOUR life.
but just sitting and thinking of things to say to the Lord becuase your bored and dont know what to say is lifeless.
prayer is made for you to come and have you deepest wounds washed and healed.
take your issues to prayer, and youll find motivation.
but also, have a commitment and faithfulness to be commited even to those things youd like to not have to be.
question your sincerity?
i think in times of doubt or confusion we all question ourselves, and its healthy to an extent.
you need to keep constant check on yourself, and if you arent sincere, then you need to honest and realise your not, so you can be healed.
become sincere, ask the Lord to forgive you and create in you a sincere heart.
sometimes you have to ask God to come and change you, becuase you cannot change yourself.
you have to confess it to God and ask him to come and create sincerety inside you.
that is if your not sincere.
but you do need to keep constant check.
and dont look back to see if you were sincere yesterday, make sure your sincere today.
Lee.