This is a low level of a life lived according to feeling. What I'm talking about is a life of feeling vs. a life of faith. And I don't mean low in the sense of low morally, but low in the sense of slightly. A very high level of life of feeling is for instance, viewing sensuous material or shows; porn is higher still.
There's something about wrestling that appeals to you. Because it's in the very low category, you don't have a strong objection in your spirit to it, but it does cause questions to arise regarding it in your heart.
The trick is to find other things that are just as fulfilling on the same low level. The chemicals that bring pleasure, or excitement, and fulfillment in our bodies are dopamine and oxytocin. Dopamine is involved in porn for instance, or drugs, or alcohol, and oxytocin is involved in companionship, sitting on the beach with someone you love, taking a walk and talking to them, maybe even a Bible study with them, reading a book. These can be very fulfilling, and so can TV shows. Feelings of enjoyment are fine, but I think you're discovering that what you want is enjoyment feelings that are in keeping with your Christian faith. I would recommend finding other means of enjoyment (or shows) that still bring that satisfying feeling of enjoyment without violating your conscience.
Blessings,
H
