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Intellectual doubts usually aren’t a problem for me. But for the last day or so, they’ve been bouncing around my head and I can’t seem to get them out.
Last night, I went to read through a psalm before bed and everything I read just sounded ridiculous as I read it. Like I couldn’t believe it. And for the last day or so, I’ve just been filled with all kinds of intellectual doubts about history, Biblical reliability, Jesus’ divinity, everything. I get these doubts from time to time, but I’m having a hard time shaking them now. And I know everyone has seasons where they doubt, but it’s been so, so hard today. I’m having trouble focusing on anything else.
I feel like I have heart knowledge, but I admit, as a logic person, I feel this need for my head knowledge to catch up. Maybe God is trying to teach me to trust in Him more, I don’t know. I have no hope apart from Him. I want desperately to believe in Christ. The very thought of not believing scares me so much. Maybe I’m being silly. I’m just really scared. The moment when you worry that everything is fake is just so, so terrifying.
Please pray for me during this season. How have you overcome seasons like this?
Last night, I went to read through a psalm before bed and everything I read just sounded ridiculous as I read it. Like I couldn’t believe it. And for the last day or so, I’ve just been filled with all kinds of intellectual doubts about history, Biblical reliability, Jesus’ divinity, everything. I get these doubts from time to time, but I’m having a hard time shaking them now. And I know everyone has seasons where they doubt, but it’s been so, so hard today. I’m having trouble focusing on anything else.
I feel like I have heart knowledge, but I admit, as a logic person, I feel this need for my head knowledge to catch up. Maybe God is trying to teach me to trust in Him more, I don’t know. I have no hope apart from Him. I want desperately to believe in Christ. The very thought of not believing scares me so much. Maybe I’m being silly. I’m just really scared. The moment when you worry that everything is fake is just so, so terrifying.
Please pray for me during this season. How have you overcome seasons like this?