So after being in a relationship for 3 years, that relationship was not healthy, it wasn't good, I only stayed because of lust. During the breakup process, I prayed & asked God to put someone into my life & that's exactly what he did next day after asking God, I met someone & she was absolutely perfect. Me being stupid, I cheated on her with the previous girl & I ruined that relationship. I regret it so much, it was so hard getting over the girl God blessed me with. I tried very hard to get her back, but God already blessed her with another guy. After months of grieving & being depressed, I finally came to terms with the whole ideal. She forgave me & we are friends. I don't talk to her anymore because I still have feelings for her & it hurts I can't be with her. So I prayed & prayed, begging for forgiveness for taking what God blessed me with for granted & he blessed me with someone else. I've only known the girl for about a month, but she is everything I want & one thing that really makes me attracted to her is her faith & how focused she is in her studies, she's a great person & I can honestly see myself with her long term. Well, I screwed up, AGAIN. In the beginning I wasn't honest about my age, she's 19, I'm 19 (about to turn 20). I told her I was 21, going on 22. Reason being, typically, where we live, guys my age aren't on the same level of maturity as I'm on, so I thought that would be a deal breaker. So, just yesterday, I felt really bad about lying to her, I'm trying to build a closer relationship with God & live accordingly, so I came clean & told her the truth because I'm really feeling her, I didn't want to drag on the lie. It's a very dumb lie & long story short, she basically hates me now & doesn't trust me. It's amazing how one thing can really make a person look you different, but I get it. She must feel if I can lie about something dumb like that, what else could I be lying about.
So this is where I need my fellow Christian's help. I've tried apologizing, sending her long texts about how sorry I am & it'll never happen again, she ignored me all day yesterday, & today when I text her, she told me not to talk to her anymore, she doesn't have anything to say to me because I'm a liar. I've been so sad, depressed, & mad at myself for once again, screwing up something God blessed me with. This is still fresh, so I'm asking all of you to pray she forgives me & gives me another chance. I'm really trying to do the right thing. I'm not a bad person, just made a very bad decisions. I'm not perfect. I really like her & I'm picky when it comes to dating. Please everyone pray me & her work things out. I promise I will never do anything like this ever again.
Her name is Shaneeka, my name is Elijah.
Thank you all! I really appreciate it...
So this is where I need my fellow Christian's help. I've tried apologizing, sending her long texts about how sorry I am & it'll never happen again, she ignored me all day yesterday, & today when I text her, she told me not to talk to her anymore, she doesn't have anything to say to me because I'm a liar. I've been so sad, depressed, & mad at myself for once again, screwing up something God blessed me with. This is still fresh, so I'm asking all of you to pray she forgives me & gives me another chance. I'm really trying to do the right thing. I'm not a bad person, just made a very bad decisions. I'm not perfect. I really like her & I'm picky when it comes to dating. Please everyone pray me & her work things out. I promise I will never do anything like this ever again.
Her name is Shaneeka, my name is Elijah. Thank you all! I really appreciate it...
