- Sep 24, 2022
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- Country
- United Kingdom
- Gender
- Male
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
So, this is going to act as an introduction as my name is Cameron Cook and I live in the UK Grimsby area. I have schizotypal and am autistic. I don't have any job or anything like that due to mental health issues what I face among other things. I came to Christ in 2016 or 2017 I always get the two mixed up but either way I came to believe in Christ during those periods. Now for the reasons why I'm struggling. Firstly, I deal with inappropriate thoughts which I try to keep a hold on, but they often get out of control and make me feel awful when I've thought about them. Another issue is that I'm unsure about my salvation as even though I should feel secure in my salvation I often doubt that I'm truly saved or was even saved to begin with which brings me great stress. Also I feel that nearly Finally, the biggest issue I deal with is my current standing with God as at the beginning of my journey with Christ I was walking closely with God, and I felt the holy spirit within me but due to awful decisions on my end which I may go into in another post I hardened my heart against God because I essentially was selfish and wanted to do stuff my own way and not seek the counsel of the lord and now a few years later I'm regretting my decision big time. I've since come to recognise the error of choosing a selfish path and have much regret. Every day I feel a guilt complex about my past decisions and would like to serve the Lord again but i find it so difficult as praying hasn't seemed to have helped much and reading or listening to the bible doesn't seem to help me either and I'm just really struggling to cope with these issues. Sorry if this was a bit long winded, I just needed to let it all out and please pray for me as well that I will get through these trying times.