I'm starting to remember why

[DeerGlow]

I remember why I disbelieved for a while. I was very depressed off and on and had a blog on tumblr of uplifting things so I could go through it and feel better. Only after a while I noticed the Buddhist quotes always picked me up most. I started wondering if a different religion was the answer to my problems. I feel like I traded my soul for temporary peace (Hebrews 6:4-6 and the verse about "... The Spirit says that in the latter times some will depart from the faith, giving heed to the doctrines of seductive spirits...." or something like going after itching ears) and I dismissed a lot of things I had witnessed as a Christian as hallucinations or schizophrenia-like symptoms and I also got involved with tarot cards (I can't believe I EVER thought that was an okay idea, Hebrews 10:24-26?) but I felt convicted and ignored it telling myself it wasn't real. I've had terrible thoughts about Satan and the mark of the beast lately and it's hard not to think I'm done for.

For clarification, I never went totally Buddhist because I don't agree with them, but I did go Taoist. Also, people have told me you have to serve the beast to get the mark and that helped for a while but not any longer.

Is there any hope? All I can imagine is hell closing in around me and God with anger dismissing me to hell as a wicked and terrible being to eternal torture. I want to be saved. I feel like a dead person already.

 

[Tigger45]

Your spirit of contrition is proof you have hope.

 

[DeerGlow]

Your spirit of contrition is proof you have hope.

I don't mean to come off as rude but do you have scripture to back this up? I would like to have bible verses I can refer to if you have some.

 

[hypostatic]

Praying for God's peace and knowledge of your salvation to fill your life.

 

[DeerGlow]

Praying for God's peace and knowledge of your salvation to fill your life.

Thank you, I always appreciate prayers.

 

[rockytopva]

I like studying the Tao and the works of Lao-Tzu and do not think it is a harm. The bible says we are not supposed to worship any Gods and I did not catch anything of this nature in the writings. Saint Augustine once wrote that, "Mans extremity is Gods opportunity." Sometimes God speaks to us to set us in the right direction, If you were that far gone you would not be here discussing it.

As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent. -Revelation 3:19

If God is speaking to you simply repent in the name of Jesus and go the direction he will have you to go. It is not so very hard.

Father I pray blessings on this request and healing of mind in Jesus name I pray. Also taking these needs before God in prayer on the 1:15PM bbnradio.org Family Altar program.

 

[Remny]

There is no hope for perfection in this world. No perfect certainty, no perfect direction, no perfect happiness. We are expected only to try. We must suffer through this imperfection, trying to be good and do good as we can, so that when we go to heaven we will be able to appreciate the perfection that it offers us. I am praying for you, that you will be resolved to continue trying. That you will be able to appreciate the good moments, and not dwell on the bad.

 

[DeerGlow]

I like studying the Tao and the works of Lao-Tzu and do not think it is a harm. The bible says we are not supposed to worship any Gods and I did not catch anything of this nature in the writings. Saint Augustine once wrote that, "Mans extremity is Gods opportunity." Sometimes God speaks to us to set us in the right direction, If you were that far gone you would not be here discussing it.

As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent. -Revelation 3:19

If God is speaking to you simply repent in the name of Jesus and go the direction he will have you to go. It is not so very hard.

Father I pray blessings on this request and healing of mind in Jesus name I pray. Also taking these needs before God in prayer on the 1:15PM bbnradio.org Family Altar program.

The tao does speak of both the Tao as a force beyond explainable comprehension and a female "maker". Taoism and Buddhism both can be merely ideologies/secular practices or religions.

 

[DeerGlow]

There is no hope for perfection in this world. No perfect certainty, no perfect direction, no perfect happiness. We are expected only to try. We must suffer through this imperfection, trying to be good and do good as we can, so that when we go to heaven we will be able to appreciate the perfection that it offers us. I am praying for you, that you will be resolved to continue trying. That you will be able to appreciate the good moments, and not dwell on the bad.

I know I'll never be perfect on earth but I'm afraid there are lines that can cost salvation.

 

[ChristianFromKazakhstan]

I remember why I disbelieved for a while. I was very depressed off and on and had a blog on tumblr of uplifting things so I could go through it and feel better. Only after a while I noticed the Buddhist quotes always picked me up most. I started wondering if a different religion was the answer to my problems. I feel like I traded my soul for temporary peace (Hebrews 6:4-6 and the verse about "... The Spirit says that in the latter times some will depart from the faith, giving heed to the doctrines of seductive spirits...." or something like going after itching ears) and I dismissed a lot of things I had witnessed as a Christian as hallucinations or schizophrenia-like symptoms and I also got involved with tarot cards (I can't believe I EVER thought that was an okay idea, Hebrews 10:24-26?) but I felt convicted and ignored it telling myself it wasn't real. I've had terrible thoughts about Satan and the mark of the beast lately and it's hard not to think I'm done for.

For clarification, I never went totally Buddhist because I don't agree with them, but I did go Taoist. Also, people have told me you have to serve the beast to get the mark and that helped for a while but not any longer.

Is there any hope? All I can imagine is hell closing in around me and God with anger dismissing me to hell as a wicked and terrible being to eternal torture. I want to be saved. I feel like a dead person already.

There's nothing Jesus can't forgive.