Hi everyone, I'm 17 and I'm new here. The reason I decided on making this thread is because I don't want to talk about this situation I'm in with anyone else right now.
About 2 months ago during the summer, I went on a trip to Thailand with my parents. We often got these massages for really cheap, and the masseuses are known for being prostitutes on the side. So I was getting a massage, and she asks if I wanted to have sex, and I agreed.
2 weeks later, back at home, I started getting a lot of symptoms of HIV (rashes, night sweats), but the rashes only lasted a day and the night sweats about a week.
I haven't gotten an HIV test yet, because I've been to scared to know the truth.. I've prayed to God every single day about this, to hope that I don't have HIV. Life is really depressing right now, since that's about the only thing clouding my thoughts, but I'm too scared to know the truth. I feel as though if I come out negative for HIV I'll do things a LOT differently. This experience is giving me a whole new outlook on life.. and how valuable it truly is.
Sorry for the long read, but I had to get this out. So please, if you read this, I'd be really happy if you gave me a little prayer to get out of this all okay. I know everybody has struggles in life, even me, but I don't think I could take having HIV..especially having to see the pain of the ones I love because of something stupid I did. Although I believe God doesn't burden us with more than we can carry, I still hope to avoid this problem.
I know a lot of lives have been ruined because of 1 stupid little mistake, and many others have been in this exact situation I'm in, praying to God and asking for help. I don't know if all of them came out all right, but I'm praying here now that God watches over me and does help me come out of this okay.
Thank you everyone for taking the time to read this!
About 2 months ago during the summer, I went on a trip to Thailand with my parents. We often got these massages for really cheap, and the masseuses are known for being prostitutes on the side. So I was getting a massage, and she asks if I wanted to have sex, and I agreed.
2 weeks later, back at home, I started getting a lot of symptoms of HIV (rashes, night sweats), but the rashes only lasted a day and the night sweats about a week.
I haven't gotten an HIV test yet, because I've been to scared to know the truth.. I've prayed to God every single day about this, to hope that I don't have HIV. Life is really depressing right now, since that's about the only thing clouding my thoughts, but I'm too scared to know the truth. I feel as though if I come out negative for HIV I'll do things a LOT differently. This experience is giving me a whole new outlook on life.. and how valuable it truly is.
Sorry for the long read, but I had to get this out. So please, if you read this, I'd be really happy if you gave me a little prayer to get out of this all okay. I know everybody has struggles in life, even me, but I don't think I could take having HIV..especially having to see the pain of the ones I love because of something stupid I did. Although I believe God doesn't burden us with more than we can carry, I still hope to avoid this problem.
I know a lot of lives have been ruined because of 1 stupid little mistake, and many others have been in this exact situation I'm in, praying to God and asking for help. I don't know if all of them came out all right, but I'm praying here now that God watches over me and does help me come out of this okay.
Thank you everyone for taking the time to read this!