i feel soemwhat lead to give my testimony.
to sum it up from about the age of 6+ i was bullied. i had little friends. because i was bullied alot this made me unhappy. one day when i was about 15 i started making friends and thoguht "this is going to make me happy". well it didnt, and i was more misrable than ever. partly because i had a messed up childhood i was still rather strange and thoguht many evil and twisted thoughts.
i began to get very depressed and angry, i was naturally strong and started being more violent that peoepl feared me. i started drinking on my own which caused even more misery, and i was goign down hill in my school work because of my depression. it got my mums attention who cared for me greatly and noticed i was getting stranger, she suspected i was on drugs. eventually quite strongly suggested to go to the doctors to get anti-depressents. i remember many a time when i would scream and shout and she would cry. even threaten my own mum and sister and had fights with my own dad.
i started to get very bad, suicidal thoguhts and self harm i wanted to die and i had no idea what was goign on with my life. but the whole time the lord was standing right beside me crying the times i cried, and holding my hand when i was weaker than ever.
one day i spoke to a friend who was a christian at school. he spoke to me all on my own about the love of jesus and god almighty who so loved us that he sent his one and only son to die for all ourr sins. i rmeeber afterwards that i was speechless and in awe. and i blurted out all the things that were wrong with my life, and everything wrong with me that i needed changing. so i went to a youth group at the church he went.
after a few weeks i prayed to god for the first time in my life and i said "lord if you are there, if you are real and you love me. then show yourself to me and i promise with all my heart i will follow every path you take me". Then suddenly out of just nowhere in my room i felt a sudden presense. as it grew stronger and stronger i started crying big tears down my face. until it was so strong that i could not move myself as i felt physically that i was being pushed down onto my bed. and this unbelivable joy and peace i never felt before came over and i repeneted all my sins there and then. i was in apsulute amazment and joy and god revealed himself thorugh the bible too after when i felt a verse i had never ever read before go into my mind. it said "forgiven are those who ask for forgiveness".
2 weeks later i felt his holy presense and acdcepted jesus into my life as my saviour and as my dad came to pick me up i remember going into his car shaking all over and saying "jesus is my lord". i got home and saw my sister who i had so abused and upset for so long that she just hated me. she didnt care about me but for the first time in a long time i came up to her and put my arms around her and said "i love you".
from that night it has been about 10-11 months since. i want to encourage you that i have tried to keep close to what i promised to god on that first tiem he revealed himself to me. that i have tried to stay close and have stepped out of faith many times. some are on this website but others are in church,, on my own and other times even to people at school who dotn beleive. god is useing me so strongly in prothetic and has showen to me the gift of healing. i am seeing more and more peopel get healed when i pray and god heals. some are of prothetic healing. others are jsut simple healings.
i am only 17, there is nothing great about me. i was just a weak boy. i was just lost and foolish. but god has been there the whole time, and never turned his back. his grace is enough for me, his graee is enough. i hiope i havnt been to boring... but i want to say god is doing amazing things and i am only just 17. i say to those teenagers my age and lower have faith. have faith and believe and you will see great and unsearchabvle things.
i have seen the light of god, in a dream i saw god once but all i cvould see was a white light that was so white and pure. and i was struck like a dead man in humbleness and fear. god is mighty.
PRAISE JESUS of all his holiness and majesty blessed is his name in all the earth.
to sum it up from about the age of 6+ i was bullied. i had little friends. because i was bullied alot this made me unhappy. one day when i was about 15 i started making friends and thoguht "this is going to make me happy". well it didnt, and i was more misrable than ever. partly because i had a messed up childhood i was still rather strange and thoguht many evil and twisted thoughts.
i began to get very depressed and angry, i was naturally strong and started being more violent that peoepl feared me. i started drinking on my own which caused even more misery, and i was goign down hill in my school work because of my depression. it got my mums attention who cared for me greatly and noticed i was getting stranger, she suspected i was on drugs. eventually quite strongly suggested to go to the doctors to get anti-depressents. i remember many a time when i would scream and shout and she would cry. even threaten my own mum and sister and had fights with my own dad.
i started to get very bad, suicidal thoguhts and self harm i wanted to die and i had no idea what was goign on with my life. but the whole time the lord was standing right beside me crying the times i cried, and holding my hand when i was weaker than ever.
one day i spoke to a friend who was a christian at school. he spoke to me all on my own about the love of jesus and god almighty who so loved us that he sent his one and only son to die for all ourr sins. i rmeeber afterwards that i was speechless and in awe. and i blurted out all the things that were wrong with my life, and everything wrong with me that i needed changing. so i went to a youth group at the church he went.
after a few weeks i prayed to god for the first time in my life and i said "lord if you are there, if you are real and you love me. then show yourself to me and i promise with all my heart i will follow every path you take me". Then suddenly out of just nowhere in my room i felt a sudden presense. as it grew stronger and stronger i started crying big tears down my face. until it was so strong that i could not move myself as i felt physically that i was being pushed down onto my bed. and this unbelivable joy and peace i never felt before came over and i repeneted all my sins there and then. i was in apsulute amazment and joy and god revealed himself thorugh the bible too after when i felt a verse i had never ever read before go into my mind. it said "forgiven are those who ask for forgiveness".
2 weeks later i felt his holy presense and acdcepted jesus into my life as my saviour and as my dad came to pick me up i remember going into his car shaking all over and saying "jesus is my lord". i got home and saw my sister who i had so abused and upset for so long that she just hated me. she didnt care about me but for the first time in a long time i came up to her and put my arms around her and said "i love you".
from that night it has been about 10-11 months since. i want to encourage you that i have tried to keep close to what i promised to god on that first tiem he revealed himself to me. that i have tried to stay close and have stepped out of faith many times. some are on this website but others are in church,, on my own and other times even to people at school who dotn beleive. god is useing me so strongly in prothetic and has showen to me the gift of healing. i am seeing more and more peopel get healed when i pray and god heals. some are of prothetic healing. others are jsut simple healings.
i am only 17, there is nothing great about me. i was just a weak boy. i was just lost and foolish. but god has been there the whole time, and never turned his back. his grace is enough for me, his graee is enough. i hiope i havnt been to boring... but i want to say god is doing amazing things and i am only just 17. i say to those teenagers my age and lower have faith. have faith and believe and you will see great and unsearchabvle things.
i have seen the light of god, in a dream i saw god once but all i cvould see was a white light that was so white and pure. and i was struck like a dead man in humbleness and fear. god is mighty.
PRAISE JESUS of all his holiness and majesty blessed is his name in all the earth.
