To all of you out there who struggle with selfharm. I want to tell you that I found light at the end of the tunnel.It's all very well people telling you to stop harming but the desision to stop has got to come from you. For me i asked my psychiatrist for an alternate to cutting and burning. I didnt want to cut and burn but i felt i needed an alternative method. She suggested using an elastic band and gave me one even!. SO i did and though it is still self harm (pinging the band hard against my wrist) It gave me the same release of endorphin in my brain and gave me the same calm as cutting and burning did. It is far less distructive. I guess it's like a half way house. I should i guess be saying to you just stop but I know its not as simple as that so I am suggesting that people perhaps in thier search for an end use an elastic band instead. Also I want to share something said to me the last and final time I used the band which was in May this year. I was saying it helps me coz it calms me etc.... It was kindly said to me that 'how can something which is not right be of help'? Good point. I understand the temptation and I know the release that self harm brings. There can be an end but it's got to come from you wanting to truly stop and self harm can be like a security blanket. I used to say to myself ' If things get too bad I can always kill myself. I knew that i would never go thriough will it but that was my security blanket in the same way that self harm is. Self harm for me is in the past. I long to be able to help others overcome this distructive activity.
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